Friday, January 26, 2007

background...


first please allow me to share about my family here.
my family wasn't perfect,in fact it wasn't an example to follow.with a marriage that took place when my mom was 20 and give birth to me when 22, as well as a father that don't hold a stable job, everyone predicted that this relationship is not going to last long.at the end, 6 years after give birth to a son the relationship come to an end.perhaps,this could be the only way to them. what are the things that both of them left behind , as the relationship end?
well, they left a 6 years old boy that don't know a thing from adult world, a boy that don't know why his father suddenly disappear after one night, a boy that suddenly realized that his father never come to fetch him back from school again.they left hatred, not only to themselves but cause both family into a problem that last until now.
i grow up in this kind of environment.i can be very honest to you that i used to be a rebellion, self-seeking, depression kid.even there r few time i have though about suicide because of an very little argument with my family members. i don't have a very good social life even when im study in primary school because of my bad personalities. for me, i think that this world is unfair to me and seem like no one care for me.i become very self-seeking because of this mind set.
but thank God im change because of His love for me.i learned to accept my past and look forward not the past.Praise Him amen!!!

Monday, January 22, 2007