House builder

Once you discovered, you'll never walk out His way. .

2011-04-22T08:38:00.000-07:00

Has been a Christians after so many years. Went through amazing times in church, serving, ministry and personal relationship with God as well as down times that as dry as a desert, wonder aimlessly in wilderness and felt distance from God. Many has changed and many people come into the companionship, and move on in lives. but one things remains, after 7 years walking with the Lord, it is the Grace of God never, never once in life that let me down and am humbled by all the things that He has done, in Calvary and in people lives. it's so amazing to see Him move, again and again like He's never gonna stop. Have i felt in times that i need a break or a 'pause' in serving God? Countless time! However, not once in life i felt that Grace getting tired of me. for this reason, am forever own by Yours, Lord. in my imperfections, my unworthiness, you found me and gave me a reason to live again. and after some times I still turn away from you. But You loves me still, loves me with greater passion than i could ever possibly comprehend. Sometimes ago i asked myself, how can a person be backslides from God if he truly knows the depth of love God has for them. As for me, i know that since the moment i accepted Him to be my Lord, this is a no turning back journey and i can not deny that fact that He is so awesome to me! More than words can describes. The Way He fills me, the Way He comforts me, the way He loves me, oh i could not turn away my face and treat as if He's never exist before. God, i choice to to walk with you, in my imperfections, i will strive to loves you with all that i am, to the day that your desire become my desire, and to the day that i finally stand before you, i'll walk this journey with you and no turning back!

Peter and us..

2011-03-30T09:10:00.000-07:00

it has been 2 years since my last post.. today let's talk about an interesting man named Peter. Peter is the most charismatic follower of Jesus and he also been famous also but his 'big-mouth' reputation. why so? the reason being is that he always speak the wrong thing and don't really process his word before it comes out from his mouth.

On Mat 16 Peter made a remarkable confession to Jesus that He is the Messiah, this was remarkable because there is none making such a brave and dangerous statement that one is the Son of God that come to deliver all from sins. through this revelation from God, Jesus blessed Peter and Prophesied that great things will be done through Peter and he will be the rock where Jesus stands on Earth.

however, the next incident after Peter confession is that Peter speak something that totally opposite of what he done the previous verses. and this time Jesus confronted him, rebuke and address Peter as 'Satan, go away from me'.. Wow, what a turn for dear Peter who blessed by Jesus the other day and now degrade to 'Satan'. What are the problems here?

Peter saw what other people can't see, that he declared Jesus is the Messiah, and for that Jesus praise him and regarded him as faith. but Peter misunderstood the whole purpose of The Messiah, taking the form of man and descended to earth. To Peter, maybe the rest of the followers, sees Jesus going to build a earthly kingdom that will aims to overrule the Roman Empire. Interestingly, the famous Jesus's quote of the cost of following Him come after this incident. What profit is the man who gain the whole world but loses his own soul, Jesus asked. Jesus's desire is to build a spiritual kingdom, but the followers were expecting the earthly kingdom here and now.
therefore, what are the roles of Peter playing in this whole Messiah conversation?

Sometimes Peter's desire reflected in our lives while walking closely to God. We see, visualize what God can do in our lives, but the dangers lie when our expectation do not match with God's intended plan. We felt that we are called for something, for greatness. Yes praise the Lord, and all glory to God. but we need to remind ourselves that we are building God's kingdom not our kingdom. Many people distorted or stray away after the reach the place of promise. but not knowing that the real challenges come after the promise and many fails on the task of maintaining. Just take a look after Israel conquer the promise land, many stumble and sin against God. Therefore, bear in mind that in all that we are doing, striving to glorify God, always put His thoughts higher than our thoughts. and know that it is He who gave us our visions and dreams and we are merely the steward of his dream for us.

Be a good steward of dream, multiply it and harvest it for God! Just like how Peter spread the good news to people, God multiply his dream and Peter fix his eye on the Lord rather than he and himself.

daniel's 3 friends

2010-01-19T10:21:00.000-08:00

i recieve a picture while praying in church. i saw a light shine from heaven and it light up a circle which happen i was standing in the middle. i could see clearly what's is within the circle, maybe three to four steps distance but i could see nothing beyond the circle because it was too dark to see anything. 'what are you trying to tell me, God?' i asked.

i did not understand on the spot, i try to interpret the picture by refering to a verse from psalm saying that 'GOd's word is the light unto my feet and the lamb unto my path', so maybe i thought what God was trying to tell me it's to read His word more and He will light the rest of the path for me. but i still cannot conclude that statement.

and when i got home, i read my daily bible reading and found myself in daniel chapter 3. i finally got my eureka moment when i read about daniel's 3 friend refuse to bow down to the statue and replied the king that they will not bow down to any idol even to the point of death, regardless of whether GOd will come to rescue them ornot, they will still not to disobey God. and this statement strike me tremendously.

firstly, i was reminded by the scripture that there is no GUARANTEE in serving God. otherwise it will become an insuran policy that attract selfish people to gain advantage from GOd. and that not what GOd want from his people. and that's the whole point, nothing in life is GUARANTEE. you do not know what will happen to you when you choose to stand up for God or your conviction, God did not promise rescue on the spot, in fact many people become matryn when they stand up for what they believe in. and i believe their courage do not come from whether GOd will come to rescue them ornot, but it's the reckless faith that they shown to GOd by total obedience even to the point of
death. these people have great reward awaiting for them in heaven.

the light that shine in the circle allow me to see what i can do or where should i step out, but it's the place where i cannot see anything will define my relationship, devotion and commitment
to my God. it's so easy if we got everything plan out for us, but when we move into the realm of unknowing, faith take place and only those who remain faithfull till the end shall see the glory of GOd.

to summarize, have faith in GOd, even though the place where you will step into is on solid ground or surface of water, whether you will stand still or fall into the water, do the best you know how, even if God did not come true. Say to yourself that you will not give up and will remain faithful to Him! this is the faith of revivalist, die to see the fire fall down from heaven!

my Strength, Fortress and Refuge.

2009-04-08T23:24:00.000-07:00

Jeremiah 16: 19a

" Lord, you are my strength and fortress, my refuge in the day of troubles!"

In times when I'm weak, You are there to strengthen me,
and I wonder why I did not noticed Your presence?
In times when I'm fighting against my own will, You are there to fight with me
and how could I ever to miss that?
In times when I'm overloaded with my circumstances, You are there to comfort me
and why am I no remember our secret place?

I know You always will, but why am I keep on forgetting that.

Usual Night. Unusual Things

2009-04-06T11:31:00.000-07:00

it's has been a while since my last blog. To be frank, I seriously think that I'm losing the fire to keep writing.
This year has been a real challenge to me. Second year of Uni is surely not a vacation to me. assignments after assignments, presentation after presentation. Oh man when can I get over all these! some people said ' maturity comes by how well you handle responsibility', well I guess I still have a long way to go.
it is another usual night for me, still awake at 2 a.m.. but something unusual about tonight, instead of doing my assignment, i was spending my mid night in my secret place.
I love spending time with God in the middle of the night. probably one of the quiet moment in my day, but i'm most awake during that hour. many things has caught me up during the day, assignment, emails, movies, youtube and PS2, maybe i should consider fasting them this week for Easter.
I was reading Jeremiah 15 today, the Lord replied Jeremiah's complaint of his ministry and his circumstances;

This is how the Lord responds:
“If you return to me, I will restore you
so you can continue to serve me.
If you speak good words rather than worthless ones,
you will be my spokesman.
You must influence them;
do not let them influence you!

God is amazing. It speaks right into my heart. sometimes it only takes you less than 5 mins to discover what God trying to speak to you. God promise that if we return to Him, He will 'rest' in us + 'store' up blessing for us. what's more can you ask if you have the creator of heaven and earth promise to come and restore you if you make your way back to him.

"What can i do, but praise You,
what can i do, but give my heart to You,
You broke into my darkness and give me the hope
my soul rest well in you, our secret place,
where is my journey begin.

An Honorable Ambition?

2009-03-04T01:42:00.000-08:00

To aspire to leadership is an honorable ambition. I Tim 3:1

Should you then seek great things for yourself? Seek them not Jeremiah 45:5

Mark 10:42-44

' You know that those who are regarded as rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their high officials exercise authority over them."
Not so with you, says the Lord..."Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all"

how many of us today serve God with a unworthy motivation, or seeking prestige or greatness in doing His works? God is perfectly fine with us for being ambitious, but He is concerns about the force driven behind our ambitions. As a believer of Jesus Christ we ought to lead by a deep love for Christ and genuine concern for others (Love God with passion and love people with compassion).

Reflect yourself today, is Jesus our passion? Or He is just a step way for you to climb higher on your 'spiritual career'?

'Because we children of Adam want to become great,
He became small.
Because we will not stoop,
He humbled Himself.
Because we want to rule,
He came to serve.

Life Verse

2009-01-21T01:06:00.001-08:00

Psalm 24:3-6

3 Who may ascend the hill of the LORD ?
Who may stand in his holy place?
4 He who has clean hands and a pure heart,
who does not lift up his soul to an idol
or swear by what is false.
5 He will receive blessing from the LORD
and vindication from God his Savior.
6 Such is the generation of those who seek him,
who seek your face, O God of Jacob.

LOVEtoTHINK.com

2008-12-17T19:31:00.000-08:00

recently just had my holidays and finally had my own little time to write and reflect my thoughts on something. i was looking for jobs lately. and in the mean while, surfing on Internet purposeless to find something interesting to read and study.

then i bump into one interesting subject between whether the World is creationism, or evolutionism? interesting subject uh huh...

well, as a believer of Christ and the Bible i have definitely not doubt about the teaching of the Words of God and everything He said is true. even from the beginning of the earth till now!

however, perhaps I'm not so good in explaining the wonder and amazing of God. certain things that the evolutionary argue can really shut my mouth up. (when i look at thing they debated i was like ' walau ehh, how i suppose to know?') hahaha..
i must admit that i have a lot things i do not fully understand in the world, the science the physic, the universe, are there aliens out there in the space and many many things in term of deep and intellectual subjects.
but 1 thing I'm sure about, it is the existence of God, my savior and creator. people would argue with me about their views and scientific beliefs on and on again. but as for my personal experiences and the process of my life development, i can not deny that there is a strong but yet gentle feeling in my heart that keep me believing that Jesus is real to me.
i was an atheist before i came to know Christ at the age of 15. I'm firm on my stand for i had experience a life-changing experience that it is beyond my knowledge to be able to explained in scientific language. ( if i know how sure i will do and write a thesis about it) but too bad i don't.
the world is full of mystery. today the scientist might discover a new theory tomorrow or maybe 100 years from now it will be thrown away. not everything on earth can be study and measure with observation knowledge. something ought to be study and measure with another scientific instrument, which i will called it Faith.

after all, human being are not as rational and logical as many people perceive us to be. many time i make my decision based on simple 3'E concept, Experience, Education and Emotional.
as far as I'm concern, there is not yet a scientific measurement invented and design to check our emotional level on judging things even to making major life decision.
just wanna leave a food of thoughts...i love to think...

Isa 45 - I AM the LORD and there is no other god

2008-10-26T23:35:00.000-07:00

Isa 45, '...I AM the LORD and there is no other god.'

Jesus is the Lord and there is no other god. he is the one who created the heaven and earth, who appointed leadership over our life, who is in control in both good times and bad times. Jesus is the Lord and there is no other god.

He has his special plan to every individual. and His thoughts and plans are too high for us to understand and deep for us to know. only God know His way and we mustn't make comparison between this person and that person. doesn't matter how corrupted this world could ever be, He is God whose still in charge of all these and trust that those who believe in the Lord will be save in all cost. world is getting more and more complicated but keep a simple faith , a child like faith! it's to totally rely on God rather than our own understanding of God. without this faith it's impossible to please God.

life is not smooth after all and not as easy as we taught there would be. but do not lose heart, for God is with you who keep His word in his heart and do not let the evil to take it away from them. i believe with all my heart, the generation that will turn this world upside down will be the generation that full with faith, hope and love (1 cor 13).

FAITH as in child like faith. faith in God that not what he can do for you but His character.far too often we treat God as our little wishing well. we ask things before counsel Him and i repented for my prayer life, which always surrounded on what i want from Him instead of quite down myself and let God tells me what He wants from me.

HOPE as in the salvation of Jesus Christ. hope is the one thing that we search in life to give
us security and assurance. many of us can publicly declare that Jesus is my hope but deep inside of us we place relationship, wealth, ministry, influence power, and even vision above God. despite of all our achievements, successful life, everyday we ought to come back to God with brokenness, take off all our fancy outfits and our 'glory', with 'sackcloth' on us and once again place our trust and hope and the altar of God.

Love as in love God passionately and love people compassionately. he who said ' i love God but i find it hard to love my neighbor' is consider a hypocrisy in the sight of God. for Jesus is 'love' and therefore as His children we are 'love' as well. doesn't matter how good and how correct the preacher or teacher can argue with His theologies, if he speaks it without love or
so that he can be justified, it's not love. spiritual cleverness is different form wisdom. know the bible very well does not mean wisdom, wisdom is from God and He is love. every words we said does counts, speak the language of love and control our tongue, which is the hardest part to control of all.

oh God i pray that You will continue to find me in the secret place. where i have draw strength from You. as i lived my days Lord, increase my capacity of faith, hope and love in You oh Lord. i know how much I've lack of these 3 and i pray that i will be part of that generation that You are raising up in this end time. oh Lord, i have no turning back, and i will not. i will run with You and with a fire that can't be tamed. Help me Oh Lord. and count me in Jesus, who is the LOrd and there is no other god. Amen.

You keep givin' me...

2008-10-06T10:07:00.000-07:00

God is good. despite all our circumstances, He is still worth all our praises...
you just keep giving me...no matter what.

So many reasons to be thankful
So many blessings that I can't repay
And I never would've made it here without You
Sending angels to guide me on my way

You keep givin' me joy
You keep givin' me happiness
You keep givin' me hope
You keep givin' me everything
I wish You keep givin' holding me
When I'm about to fall
And if even all of that was not enough
You keep givin' me love

I know that I'm not always easy
And I know I put You through some trying days
But in spite of all the worries that I gave You
No, You never let my Angels get away

You keep givin' me joy
You keep givin' me happiness
You keep givin' me hope
You keep givin' me everything
I wish You keep givin' holding me
When I'm about to fall
And if even all of that was not enough
You keep givin' me love

You send angels to guide me from up above
You just keep gvin' me...
You just keep givin' me love

thanks for coming into my life...

brokenness

2008-10-04T08:57:00.000-07:00

We are living in an imperfect world. A lot things in life will not go according to what we had expected. People will say that,
"Life is unfair". Or even, doubted the existence of God in our life.
as a matter of fact, at some point in life all of us will gone through a period where your dreams have fallen apart, the departure of your loved one, the disappointments and so on. Those are the hurtful moment in life where people experience tremendous sadness and brokenness.
'why oh God, that this has happened to me? why me oh Lord?'
unfortunately, some lessons in life we need pay with a painful and heavy price. God allows a particular situation to take place so that He can change and mold us inside out.

God loves to touch and work through the broken-hearted.

He loves to heal, and restore us whose heart are broken and full of scares. because every time when a heart is broken, its pride die with it and this make rooms for God to work something out in this person's life.
my heart has once broken into pieces before. and the issue of that was the separation of my parent. that really hurt me a lot and i remembered i hold on to myself many unforgiveness, bitterness, depression and angers in my heart. those was one of the darkest moment in my life and this issue has cause me many difficulties while I'm growing up. Praise God that Jesus come into my life. and He heals my broken heart completely, though it's not a one time process but takes years upon years for me to let go the past hurts.
and from this heart that is broken by his family now God had turn its weakness into strength, from a place of weeping into to a place of well.
God allows brokenness, therefore we will put our trust in him, become 'selfless' and 'nothing' in Christ Jesus. and through this He can builds us up again and this time round to another new level of faith. But God will move us, from a place of weeping to a place of well, a place of promise, a place of hope.

God is always there with us. He knows how much we have struggles, even the weight of our tears He keeps for us. it's not easy, but God will walk with us throughout this time. He will never leave us, nor forsake us.

"Lord my heart cry for You, my heart yearn for You,
i beg You to come into my rescue, be my escape and strong tower,
in whom i had found my strength, in whom i had found my peace,
again, again and again. and You will never fails
you have proven yourself that you are faithful God, and i pray you prove it again this time o Lord,
for I'm in great burden and in desperately need of You.
help me Jesus, be my hope, be my strength, be my love, be my life Lord.
i will wait upon You, and rest in Your mighty arms of love,
all that you have promised, it will come to past one day, and you will fulfill it.
love you Jesus"

Isaiah 25

2008-09-08T09:24:00.000-07:00

isa 25 - 7.9.08

"in that day the people will proclaim, 'this is our God. we trusted in Him, and He saved us.
This is the LORD, in whom we trusted. let us rejoice in the salvation He brings!"
prophet Isaiah exalted and praised God because God will complete what He had promised to His people long ago. God gave Isaiah the vision of the final judgement as well as restoration of the Glory of God in the end times when God ruled the earth.

Isaiah praised God and lifted up His name, though all these events are not yet been taken place, which is something that is still 'unseen'. and this is the one thing that makes Isaiah so different among the prophets in his times. Isaiah is able to see the 'vision, and the whole picture of God rather than seeing things with his own eye or from the perspectives of the world. this is very important as a prophet of God in his time. only you alone know what you speak on behalf is from God or not. perhaps many things in life that God has promised to us are yet to be fulfill. but while waiting on His timing, somehow we lose our heart in this journey or even to the extreme, we 'forget' about all these promises. bible always remind us that God's promises need to be claim by His believers. we need no fear in what He has promised - those blessing as well as the cursing, for what He said He will fulfill. but we ought to have faith and believe in what He has started off in us and trust that He is the finisher of all things.

this is our God! He is the beginning and the end, alpha and omega. He is faithful and just. all
that He said or promised to you through bible or Rhema will be fulfill. He remembers
every prayers and tears that His children broke down for Him, even those promises that we'd
forgotten but He remembers it till the end of the day. therefore, have faith in Him, His characters and
His love, trust Him in times of disappointment, let's believe in God for His unchanging love
towards all of us and He will never short change even one of us. in times that we couldn't see what God is doing, let be stilled in His presence and know that He is God.

and surely on that day when God comes through, we will declare and shout out loud that,"indeed this is our God. we trusted in Him...we will rejoice in the salvation He brings!"
God place every difficult situations in life for one purpose; it's to mold us and refine us to be His
pure gold and fine silver. a trial that set you to excel, not intend to fail you, not based on your grades or performances to impress Him, but instead, it's all about your capacity of FAITH in Him. let's rise up and be a generation
of excellent in FAITH and TRUST...

GOD BLESS =)

Spirit of Discernment

2008-09-03T09:43:00.000-07:00

spirit of discernment

these words appeared to me last night as i spend my personal time in worship and prayer. i must admitted that my spiritual walk had reached to a huge wall that i'm struggling to climb it through. my worship wasn't that excited anymore, my prayers wasn't that passionate anymore. and i started to doubt that whether i'm still have a genuine relationship with Jesus anymore just like how i used to be. my relationship with God has challenged and i need a breakthrough of that.
and last night i decided to spend some time with God, thrown away the worry of the time and the agenda and so on. i just wanna spend some time with God and draw near to Him again.
as i begun to worship and pray, i know deep inside my heart that God has NEVER leave me nor forsake me. He is still there when my heart is broken and crying out to Him. the peace of God filled my heart as i begun to hear His whisper to me, "I have seen you, i have heard you, you are always in my coverage."
the affirmation of God is so strong to me. in times that i'm not aware He's there, in times that i didn't feel His presence He's there as well. He loves me so much that never there is one second He is looking elsewhere beside me.
but then why i still can not 'see', 'hear' or 'touch' Him even when Jesus is dying to draw near to me?part of the reason i found out is that we, Jesus and me or us, are not looking on the same direction with one another. love relationship is a two sided relationship and required both parties to take part on that. love on one side is not complete and perfect love, it will struggle to find its balance and collapse one day.
i believe same principle apply to our relationship with Jesus. God rebuked me that i was side-tracked and loss my focus on Him. all the experience i had over these few years has take me to a whole new level of my faith in God. just like the circle of the four season, spirit life has its own season to come.
as i prayed and ask God what should i do to climb over the spiritual 'huge wall' in front of me, the word 'spirit of discernment' come into my head. these are not strange words to me, in fact this was one of the spiritual gift that Janice ask me to pray about when i was still in high school.
to be honest, i have limited understanding and knowledge towards this gift and i still searching for more deep insight of the gift. i believe this is my word of the season. i'm excited to see the brand new season of my life. whose knows maybe it's not, but anything take will take me a step closer to God is worth my trying.

Restoration

2008-08-13T01:25:00.000-07:00

something pomp into my heart when i saw this word 'restore' last night during prayer meeting. i asked God,
'what does it means to be restored?'
this is no an unfamiliar word to Christianity. many times in Bible God said that He intended good for those who love Him and will bring restoration to His people and land (2 Chron 7:14). there are more than one occasion that God wanted to bring restoration to His people. one of the most significant act of God restoration is through sending His son Jesus Christ to die for all our sins. this is the restoration between God and His people, so that things will turn back to its original intention when God created us.

it reminds me of the story when Joshua leading the Israelites to enter the Promise Land of God. The Israelites have been wondering in the wilderness over 40 years. Bible said that they have no rest over these period of times until the time where they finally enter the promise land. This is a type of Christ talking about God's rest. in new testament it's said that Jesus is our peace and now we all can find our rest in Christ Jesus.
things weren't right at first, but God come and turn things back to His original intention.

'rest' and 'store' are the key to 'restore' our lives. we find our rest in Jesus, and store up not for our own good but Jesus. proverb said where's our treasure is then there our heart will be. Restoration can seem so easy but yet challenge. many of us are not willing to give up our old life and set God our priority. i wonder what make the rich young ruler to ask Jesus how to inherit eternal life.
"sell all your goods and give it to the poor, then take up my cross and follow me"
that wahh...
restoration can seem as the grace of God but required our trust in Him. we are retricted by our physical realm and too often fail to see what is going on in the spiritual reaml, that even though i have nothing in physical that i can cover myself but through God He make all things good according to His own way.
restoration is when God moves His hand among His people and started to turn the world around by His goodness and mercy.
'Rest' + 'Store' = 'Restore'

Worship, Faith and God's Hand...

2008-07-17T20:16:00.000-07:00

recently youtube has been a real blessing to me. i found so many sources all around the world and just been amazed to see what God has doing right now for His purpose. nothing is coincident, there is a plan for all these things. be blessed (please watch with a heart of worship)

What is Worship?

worship is when we stop looking at the thing of the world and start looking up to heaven...

it's when we turn away from our problem and magnify God's greatness in our life...

it's when all things seem impossible but God is still possible...

it's when the time you find it hard to believe but yet you choose to keep on and keeping holding on in His Grace...

it's when we take ourselves out of the picture and let God finished what He has begun.

it's worship is when we realized Jesus is all we got...

that is a heart of worship

Pastor. Mike, one of my real life hero of faith, now joining the team with Joel and Darlene continue to impact the world with a PURE heart for WORSHIP. I'm so blessed when i listen and listen again to this song...

i never see a worshiper that is like Mike...
i never seen a crowd that worship in this manner before...

God of this city - Passion 08

2008-07-04T19:25:00.000-07:00

"I looked for a MAN among them
who would BUILD a wall...

and STAND before Me in the gap...

on behalf of the LAND..."

Eze. 22:30

how eager are you to see God's mighty works in this land?

how willing are you to let God used you to be His instrument on earth?

how passionate are you to see God's glory dwell in this land?

God is looking down today and looking only for ONE man..

ONE man to STAND for his land...

Youth Prayer Gathering

2008-06-30T08:40:00.000-07:00

to be honest i'm even more excited for this event than any concerts or Hillsong tour...i means, where or when u can gather young people, all over the Malaysia to come and seek the face of God for our nation.
never underestimate the power of prayer...especially youth! calvin and me will be goin down to Johor for this and if anyone of u wanna to join us please let us knw ya...we would like to have u wif us...
every revival come after a great fest of prayer movement, it even begin with a man or few people who are just crying for God to save their nation...and maybe God is looking down today on Malaysia and wonder who can He used to usher in the presence of God on this land...i prayed that the prayer of Isaiah will be the prayer of our generation, that God, here i am send me...
God is looking for that 1 person to change the world...

david cook!!!

2008-05-19T09:05:00.000-07:00

he's simply amazing...he's just making this world a better place with good music...

don't wanna miss a thing-

always be my baby-

God loves China...

2008-05-19T06:08:00.000-07:00

i cant help myself but grieve whenever i watch the news...many of our friends from china lose everything we have in just a moment...their house, their friends, and even their loved one (more than 900 student still struck beneath the collapse building). their world has collapse, along with the buildings.

oh Lord:
'i commit thousand upon thousand brothers and sisters at China into Your merciful hand o God, i know You love them and You love them more than anyone could in this world. look at their broken heart and broken home and their lives that has been destroy, Lord i pray that You mercy and love will pour unto their lives Lord, that You are the ultimate Hope and You will never fails one of them...they need You o Lord and only You can put their broken pieces back into one. mountain can be moved, building can falls, lives can be in mess, but Hope in Jesus will not be destroy and no one can steal it away. i pray that through this event many doors will be open in China and let Your love, and salvation fall upon China, let the Loved of God take away China by storm. use us oh Lord, and do as only You can, Holy Spirit. Amen.

one life one purpose

2008-05-06T21:50:00.000-07:00

ecclesiastes 1 - 7.5.08

what is the meaning of life?
life without God is utterly meaningless. no matter how much you've done or accomplished it will still become meaningless. people try all their best, to chase after things that they though can bring satisfication their desire, ambition, and life.
but those life without God will never satisfied, will never content, they will never find it.

i speak this with a broken and compassionate heart to this generation. for many of them, as young as they are, having no meaning in life, thought they can appear to have a bright future and a purpose in life, deep inside they have nothing.
only those who lay down his life on the foot of the cross will found life.

Lord i pray for this generation, give us a destiny,
a purpose to live on this world.
im asking the destiny where we can find rest and satisfy,
not the destiny that this world can offer to us,
we need a destiny from above, from YOU ALONE

we fade as a generation, not on ourselves. people in future will only remember the generation, not specifically a person.
generation come and go, but what i wanna left behind for the next generation is
that, we all have a purpose to live. and this is a purpose to live for Christ
alone.

everything will fade away, but God's kingdom will stand forever. so friend i
urged you, to align your purpose of life in God today. we need to cross over and impact ther world, but what the point if you cross over without taking up your cross with you?

shout to the Lord, all the earth let us Sing...(america idol)

2008-04-13T08:11:00.000-07:00

it's so amazing...never tot tat this could happened...oh Lord increase my faith to believe what you have installed for us in this time...imagine how many people watching this all aorund the world, they said the total vote for 'america idol' is even greater than america's president election...i still can't believe tat impact of this...Praise The Lord...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chXEraRnE4o

3 'ship' God gives us...

2008-04-12T18:31:00.000-07:00

1. relationSHIP

good frens in life, my dear mom, best buddies and most importantly, a relationship with You...

2. stewardSHIP

thx very much for what i own in life now, my allowance, my phone(keke), laptop, camera and money...i know that there are all Yours and my job is to 'jaga' it for You.

3. leaderSHIP

ppl tat keep me goin on and on. pick me up when im down and build me up to become who am i today. Janice thx very much for da word of encouragement tat day...i would like share some part of it here and hope u all blessed...

josh 1:6-9

"there was such high expectation upon Joshua, to be as 'good' as Moses, but God used him to be a leader according to his unique ability and personality...walk with people who are amazing leaders, but in your learning from them never let their qualities be your standard more than let God's qualities be your standard"
janice (april, 9, 08)

indeed im very blessed by these word. at the end, God is still my audience, not people. He is my leader of life and i wanna serve Him with my unique ability and personality.

refining fire...

2008-04-09T05:12:00.000-07:00

it takes intense heat to purify gold and silver. similarly. it often take the heat of the trials for us, as a Christian to be purified. God shows us what is in us and clears out anything that gets in the way of complete trust in Him. on 1 peter 1:7, peter said that "these trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong and pure. it's being tested and as fire test and purifies gold - and your faith is far more important and precious to God than mere gold"

therefore, when tough times come you way, knowing that God want to use them to refine your faith and purify my heart.

proverbs 17:3 - Fire tests the purity of silver and gold, but the Lord tests the heart.

seek opportunities in every trials that you faced. you would either raise up and take up the challenge or just let yourself to be overcame by the circumstances.

a simple prayer to my future wife...

2008-03-21T07:37:00.000-07:00

i think we all should start praying for our 'unknown' future partner. i don't know about you but im excited to see her grow in her spiritual walk with God, even thought i don't know who she is rigth now. but i'm just desperate about her, so this is what i wanna remember her in my prayer everyday...

Oh Lord,

please guild her on every steps that she takes in her daily life. and i pray that she will be strong and courage to overcome her circumstances, not by her own but by Your strength. also i pray that she will continue oh Lord, to walk with you each day and to increase her capacity to love You more passionately and love people more compassionately. this is my desire oh Lord, to see her love for You grown daily and even to a point that will cost her everything. Help her in her daily walk oh Lord, increase her in her knowledge about Your Word. prepare her oh Lord, to become what you want her to be tomorrow. i pray Lord that You will be her provider and protector. thought i don't know who is she and where she is right now, my prayer is that You will always lead her on Your path of righteousness, never leave her nor forsake her. this is my prayer to my future wife. may You oh Lord, be the center of our relationship, always and forever.

i love you...

solomon...

2008-03-19T22:12:00.000-07:00

over the past few weeks i had reminded the story of this man, solomon. as many as people would remember about this man, he is the wisest man ever lived on earth according to the Word of God and also the riches and prosperity he shared is beyond numbered.

solomon, above all else he ask God wisdom to govern His people. in response to that, God was pleased and glad for what solomon ask. and at the end, God not only granted his request and also bless him with what he did not ask for- riches, honor and long life. 1 king 3:5-15

we all know God is a God that loves to bless us. in fact this is one of his nature- He gives his Only son, Jesus. but what i discover in this passage is...God can be glad or disappointed in things that u ask from him.

for example u ask for a b'day present from uR parent, at first u were just asking a new mobile phone but u have no idea that ur parent are actually prepared to buy u a brand new car. or uR parent ask what u wanna have for dinner not knowing that they are already prepared to bring u to dine in TGIF but u told them wanna go eat mamak food.

do u get da pic?y settle for second best while u can have the pleasure to enjoy the best God has install for u?

imagine that if solomon was only ask for riches or long life when God appear to him, what would possibly happened?

haha seriously i don't know too. but 1 thing i knw is that he would probably failed to realize his full potential.

mark this word, when u ask God for the right thing, the bible said He's not only granted uR original request but bless u with some other things that u did not ask.

i pray and i pray that i wouldn't limit God and my potential by the prayers that i pray. riches and long life is what to God? to me solomon has make a good deal, he ask for wisdom and God gives him riches and long life as a free gift. so friend, be WISE in what u ask...

uniqueness

2008-03-04T03:23:00.001-08:00

one day i asked my mom this question, why u still wanna dress up uRself if we are only goin to meet up our old relatives? then she answer me back, "i'm not dress up for other people, i dress up only myself"...straight away, i was stun there...
people oweyz told me this when i first started my christian journey, "u r unique in God's eye, He made you different and special from others."
i wonder how long i never heard that kind of encouragement since then...
one thing i oweyz keep reminding myself is that i'm made for a purpose and special in His eye... as well as the world could see that "i'm different and special" from many of them...however, i've changed even when i myself didn't realizing it...the way i dress up, way i talk and so on...hav been so "un-alvin"...i must admit that ppl is one of the factor...sometime i'm too caught out wif how other people would think of me what if i fail them...
i've been 'dress up' becoz of others, not for myself...i wonder why that people especially in a big city r so caught out wif identity and 'GANG"...?can i juz be myself of the way i style my hair, wat kind of food to eat or should i juz share exactly the same thoughts we all share...?sometime i felt like im living in a robot world, where everyone look da SAME or trying to be da SAME...

driver seat...

2008-02-24T00:01:00.000-08:00

i received something very interesting last night when we( cal n me) were praying for our goals for this year...hope you'll be blessed...

i was driving a car to a place where i never been before. i have no clue about where is it and how i gonna reach there, and all i can refer to was the 'sign-board' along the road and a guy who i dun know sitting beside me. i was confused at times and turn into lots and lots of wrong junctions as i was still trying to find a WAY out to get to the place. moreover, u know it very well about the condition of our Malaysia's 'sign-board'...it leads u to no way!!!( not all the times la but absolutely sometimes)

so here i am in lost. although there are few times the guy who sitting next to me had giving me some SUGGESTION about the direction. and in fact i felt that I'm getting more and more closer to my destination after with his feedback. but still, i couldn't find it. then he said:
"let me take the driver seat."
"no, i don't know you", i replied.
and i tried another few mores round but still couldn't get the WAY.then he said again:
"let me take the driver seat"
"no, i think i can handle this, besides that i don't know you"
then he replied,
"you can don't know about my WAY but you can't don't know me. and now let me take you home."
and all in a sudden i know who this guy is. He is The Way.
for so long i have been taken the driver seat and allow God sit next to me. at first i thought it was OK for God still with me anyway. but 1 thing i lack of is that the intention of God. through this i know that God hasn't really happy for just sitting on the passenger's seat, He wants to TAKES us and LEADS us.

friends where do you see yourself in right now? who is sitting at the driver seat? i don't know about you, but my journey is still haven't end, and this time round God is my driver. assuredly i don't know where i am heading to, but with Him, why should i so eager to know.

see the world through Your eye...

2008-01-29T04:13:00.000-08:00

this month i hav recieved 2 part time job offers at KL...one is working as a promoter of a famous brand at Malaysia and another one as a service crew of a...also quite a well known japanese restourant at Malaysia la...believe me, now i can said to u with all my heart that "money is not easy to earn"...i dun knw bout u if u were in my situation, bt i took both of the jobs...same time...(haiyo too desperate edi tat time)
i nearly gt myself burn out over this period...im stress out and frustrated about my life and things that r happen in my work place such as a boss that very high demand on uR work time and disagreement and so on...after a while i started regrading of my choice simply because i can't c my future there felt like a waste of time...and i complained it to God n hope that will gt any encouragement there n wat He reply really blow my mind...He said that "this is what u wan, not wat i wan. i already have something installed for u bt since u dun wan to take it then u will settle the second best"...all in a sudden i become silent and u knw...juz stun turn there n dun knw wat should i said next...God is teaching me a lesson over this time...not all the doors that open to me are from Him...no matter how good it seems to be...some r from the world n some even perhaps r after by uR own desire...settle for the Best or the second best of uR life? u choice uRself...for wat i knw is, God's way always is the better way and i really learned it by this time round...God Bless!!!

jer 29:11, "For I know the plan I had for u,..."
pro 3:5-6, "Trust in the LORD...and He shall makes your path straight"

the last night at KL 2007...

2007-12-13T08:01:00.000-08:00

im kind of bored thought, so been thinking y not juz write some stuff here while im waiting for my on9 movie to be loaded...hehe

tonite havin my cell again. and im very blessed by it...especially when it's comes to da sharing of the Word...(i knw this blog is getting longer but i try my best to make it short and nice ya)

PRAISE, what does it brings up to u when u see or hear this word?well im not here to giv u a bible lecture but to share some of my thoughts here...i believe that praise is one of the things that ppl very often talk about but doesn't always mean it...to said that, many ppl r actually taking 'praise' for granted. truely bible said we shuld praise God in all times...but i'm saying that kind of praise which come from the bottom of uR heart and the deepest of uR feeling that beyond the circumstances around can u bound from praising God.

everyday we praise God for his blessing in life, but da most powerful praise i ever seen in life is called the 'sacrifices of praise'. which mean to praise God that actually cost something from u (sacrifices), it can mean in a bad situation, da lost of uR love one, get into a serious bad injures, persecuted or one day u find that u had failed all of uR exams (arghh...can't u feel that now?). yap, it's to praise God when u feel the least, most unwanted and unwilling to praise Him...because from the moment we start praising God, we r moving our focus to God and not on our problems anymore...

psalm 34:3 (NKJV)

"Oh, magnify the LORD with me,

And let us exalt His name together."

wat does a magnifier does? it's to help us FOCUS on an item which we are hardly to see in our everyday life basis...same thing apply here in this verse, when we start to praising God beyong our circumstances, we are acutally allowing God to be MAGNIFY in our situation and declare that God is mighty to save above all our circumstances...for the Word said in ps 50:23, that

"He who sacrifices thank- offerings honours me,

and he prepares the way so that I may show him the salvation of God."

The God's salvation comes only after to those realized that God is the ultimate authority of all circumatances and by doing that, praises that come with a sacrifice must been presented unto Him. for faith is what God look for in order for Him to come into our life. praises will lift up our level faith and by that level of faith God is able to create for miracles into our situation. im not saying this based on nth, but u can flip uR bible to the story of how joshua destroy the mighty wall of jericho simply by praising and singing to the LORD, also how King Jehoshaphat putting the worship leader at da frontline of the army and eventually God handed over their enemies to Judah...

so friend what is the language of faith? it's none other than HALLELUJAH (praise the LORD)...therefore don't simply use this Word for joking la...later u kena zip-zap (ligthing) then baru u knw...hehe...hope u been bless and sry, it's another long one...haiz...

ps=we can't be expecting our life is free from troubles, but hope that through my sharing of the power of praise u can be encourage and nvr lose heart in God, coz He is oweyz there when u r needed...He nvr leave us, nor forsake us...GOD BLESS!!!

stephen chow

2007-12-10T06:27:00.000-08:00

haha stephen chow is probably one of the most successful hk's actor in the world today. he is famous among the Chinese community and beyond that, even my maid also know who is this 'chow xin che' about.

to many ppl stephen chow is a comedian and funny joker in the movie industry. but to me he is more than that.

some ppl has said that he is actually a philosopher, communicated his idea through his movies and performances. at 1st im not sure about this, until lately i watch one of his recent movie...there is scene go on like this...

in the night of the sea shore, there is nth except darkness there. a girl who is a prostitute ask him, "can u see anything(sea shore)except darkness? it's like my life that i can't see anything in front of me." then he replied, "no ahh, if u sit here until the next morning then u will not only see the 1st light of the sun, and it's very beautiful too"

this conversation has struck me though, sometime we are very keen to see the result here and now, but if we keep holding on and believe, one day we gonna see the 1st light from the sun and will see and enjoy the beauty of it. it may be dark now, but surely light will come one day.

who so important..?

2007-11-10T09:23:00.000-08:00

God used people to change or even destroy our life...so i believe we all need to acknowledge some of them and here is my own little reflection of how my social life has been doing over the few years...and wonder how God has brought me through all these friends and closed one i had...
first but not least...

vector...

someone that beyond the expression of word to me...lol...to those who know me u will HOW close this felow to me...yes...he is the one who dare me to do stupid things in any occasions and any seasons...once in the blue moon we will have ours 'fried fish gang' together juz to talk about some very 'manly' issue...best buddy on earth...

janice...

someone that i will remember even until the end of my life...great both leader and servant of God...a teacher, a leader,a best youth pastor, a friend, and a boss to me...nvr forget my good old days that i been working like a donkey under her...hehe...learning so much from her and thx so much for teaching me to become everything i am today...wonder whether i wan share this ornot, but nvr mind la...u knw what is the 1st question she ask me when we first know each other...
the answer is..."when is the last time u went to 'pang sei'...that time i only seen her no more than 3 times...

calvin ( dear roomate)... the one who bring me to Christ and 3 years after upgrading himself to become my roommate...definitely it's not easy to stay together but thx a lot for all the over night talk that now i know i can grown even when we just spend time talking about non sense...but thx God we still 'peace' with each other(he's sleeping beside me now)...famous motto, "why like that one ar?"

candy leong...
basically she is the one who 'guilty' of my 'longing' of being fashionable...haiz...what to do when u have a mother like mine...and i very proud of her...loving, caring, encouraging? well she is definitely more than that to me...

Job(bible character)...his passion and love for God that is so unshakeable even in time of troubles and sadness...very much been touch by a phrase that he said and believe will be my verse of life..."naked i come and naked i should depart...the LOrd gives and takes away, BLESSED BE YOUR NAME"...power man!!!

jesus...

what u think about it...?well...i would said 'everything is changing'...he is so cool~~~~

something to talk about...

2007-11-03T09:26:00.000-07:00

to be frank really have no ideas what i should write here...but i just felt the urges to write now therefore here i am...

this week has been an awesome week to me...especially in church...strong presence of God...strong praise and worship...and strong preaching of the Words and so and so...week in and week out this is what i always did and sometime to the extent that i treated this as a weekly routine, or even worse, probably another religion practice to me...every week involved in ministry serving, going for prayer mtg, cell group, christian fellowship, weekend service, and bible study make me wonder that actually how much time i had spend in the house of God, treating it as a 'duty' rather than an act of worship for God...from the outside perhaps people wouldn't noticed what has going on inside of me but deep in heart i know what the condition of my heart...and HE is well aware of it too...to elaborate it furthermore...i felt that i treating Christianity(which once changed my life upside down completely) as an IDOL...i could not believed it that I'm using such detestable sin to link it with my Jesus...but i need to be frank to you friends...over the few month this is what is going on inside of me...I'm doing His work without anything have to do with the RELATIONSHIP with Him...one thing that i can't admitted is that i have grown a lot in understanding the Word ever since i came down to KL...but instead of drawing closer to God in felt that I'm become more like a Pharisee...doing what is written in the law but just missed out one important thing...the humanity to accept Christ and His RELATIONSHIP...how many of u know that your vision can not be driven in the right track if u're not right in the relationship with Him...so many times i had put myself in the service of God and believing that i am doing something that pleases Him...I'm so wrong and i need to make right with him immediately...how many times i had the negative thoughts toward someone in the leadership...how many time i had ever try to bring down someone by Church politic...how many times i had complained about certain issues and people when thing doesn't go on my way in church...and how many times had i...reminded of all the sins i had committed in the house of God, one day God just come to me and said softly on my ear: "I have a second chance for you..."
on the way of my 'faithful' service to God i lost the RELATIONSHIP with my master...producing good fruits and great harvest...sure...but what if i can save thousand upon thousand of people but ironically i lost my life before His throne at the end of my life...here i wanna make a re-commitment with God again...that i will treat ministry as a privilege rather than a duty, treat leader with a grateful heart rather than condemn them, treat people with understanding rather than harsh judgemental, live sacrificially for other instead pulling responsible to others, praying rather than complaining, JOY instead of BITTERNESS...
now i have strength, the joy that fall in love with Him again...good and bad just an paper away...attitude interpret the world u see...

ps. if i had offense anyone here...im very sry for it...i wrote this one shot without any changes of sentence except wrong spelling...

RISE UP...'OLD-LADIES'!!!!

2007-08-26T09:53:00.000-07:00

never walk alone!!!

we fought a good fight

"TREZEGOL'

NEDVED!!!

wow what a great week we had...i'm very sorry if there are any Livorno's fans here...hahaha...

It couldn't have started any better... Juv had an explosive start!!! They defeated Livorno 5-1, thanks in particular to a great finale (three goals in the last 10 minutes): a warning for everybody( AC n Inter, watch out!!!)

that's a feeling that i can't explained with any verbals right now...it's just amazing to see your fav team to return with such performance in their first official match...

LOVE them when they do well, LOVE them even when they failed...my blood is flow with BLACK and WHITE...

self-esteem...

2007-08-13T05:22:00.000-07:00

"You can't touch it, but it affects how you feel. You can't see it, but it's there when you look at yourself in the mirror. You can't hear it, but it's there every time you talk about yourself. What is this important but mysterious thing? It's your self-esteem!"

haha...well if u know me very well...u'll probably know how much this word means to me...
self-esteem wouldn't be the most important thing in your life but it's definitely something that you won't neglect of.

every time when i about to go out, doesn't matter to meet my grandma, to go warison or midvally, or to makan or even to play basketball(Eric Chong u know what i talking la...hahah), i will make sure the last thing that i look at before i went out is the MIRROR...

no only that, windows of the shops or cars which contains 'a little bit' of reflection will surely see me 'dancing' in front it just to make sure everything going 'smoothly', 'in place' and little of 'extraordinary'...

researchers tell us that people who suffer self esteem is continuously rising nowadays...and it's not only youth's problems, it's a HUMAN's problem...consciously or sub-consciously, we all making our life decisions based on the value system of this world, that we all look at the outward, then only to the inward...fairly tells educated our children that, our celebrities tells us that, our customers shows us that(u will well aware of it if u r a salesman or saleswoman), everyone tells us about this value system every days...

what God look at this issue? even a prophet look at this way as well, Samuel thought David's brothers were matching with all the requirements to become a king, but remember what God said? He said '...i look at the heart, not outward appearance'.

what is the outward appearance here, well it can be uR result, outcome, talent, skill, or simply just appearance...but none of this is important to God, what God want is a 'heart' that long after Him...David fulfill this requirement while everyone of His generation fails...

sometime i find that people who do not know God a bit hard for them to understand that uR self-worth is not proven by uR academic, uR position, uR salary, uR capacity of moral and etc, but just simple because of WHO YOU ARE...God probably wouldn't love what u r doing, but He definitely love u as a person but no uR works, that is why salvation is a free gift, it's a grace of God...

uR self esteem will not merely judge by uR appearance, how many medals u had won for uR sport day, uR 'A's, uR wealth, but simple because WHO YOU ARE...imagine u r a father, u definitely won't judge uR son value by His work right...?love them as who they are...

p.s.= David been said as a handsome man too...this world is so unfair la...

fold uR blanket...

2007-07-24T02:17:00.001-07:00

i think i not really that type of person who will regularly do the clean up works of my room, fold my blanket every time i got up from my bed and even will always come 'sharp' and on time to a meeting.

ok la...don't spoil my own reputation so much...actually i did one...hahha...just the matter of make it more consistently mahh...

i think many of us find it quite often in our life daily life, right..?especially folding blanket for all the guys out there( oppss, feel like i will soon start an argument after stating this statement)...i don't know what others think la, but for me, why need to fold something that will last like....well maybe 2 - 3 hours?ya u know what i mean or not...?is like, it still gonna become as messy as today early morning when u just woke up right, no matter how nice u fold it... true?

perhaps this is one of the areas that i need to improve...and i definitely know that it's a good thing to fold uR blanket, but somehow...haiz...spirit of 'malas' bah...

see, in a small thing like this probably a lot of people won't put into concern...like what so big deal about it..?but not so on God's sight. God's Word stated clearly that everything that we do, we must do it all for the glory of God...

on the other word, excellent is what God want to see in us ...excellent means to aim for something with good quality...and 'good quality' can be very subjective in many others perspectives...as for me, excellent is an attitude, not merely defined as the final result or outcomes of uR effort...

many people nowadays care more about their destination rather than how they been to that place...with that mentality of 'as long as i reach my goal, how i go there is not a matter anymore'...imagine a group of runners racing without any rules...they cut lane, run through the padang instead of the running lane, tackle others while they running and do all difference kinds of things just make sure himself can stand on the plundit...do u still get excited about the champion of this game or not...?well i believe I'm more excited about the process la seriously...will be supper funny i guess... since everyone 'main buyuk'...this is not excellent all about...

so do everything with spirit of excellency, as for the glory of God...doesn't matter big things or little things in life...if God can entrusted u with little things (fold uR blanket), what makes u think that He will not entrusted u with BIG things...detail determined destiny, attitude of life is far more important than uR degree or uR intellectual...attitude is the key to uR successful life...

God called us to be excel in everything that we do.
y? because God himself is a God of excellent.

look at us...he make all of us so difference from others...and His plan for us far even greater...

thank you Lord...

who knows?

2007-07-13T18:37:00.000-07:00

a lot of parents nowadays thought that if they have the financial advantage and strength to provide their children a perfect environment( best education, best Sunday school, best culture to adapt, best parenting technique from #1 best-sell parenting book writer), then they can assured that they children will have no doubt that to become someone who has a bright future, someone that can achieve great things later on in life.

however, there are still no guarantee of what kind of your children will become in the future.parent nowadays holding too much hope and expectation from their children, to the extend that to push their children to a stage where they can no longer have the right, or even ability to decide something in their life. everything included toys that they should play, type of instrument they should learn, sport to play, friends to hang out, etc. once again it is nothing wrong for wanting to give your children the best and speak words of wisdom into their life. on the other hand, even God himself had demonstrate giving the BEST to us( HE give His only son for the world). so what the thing that really matter here?

no one could decide what kind of life they should live, not their parent and not even God, for God has given us to freedom to choice, between what is right and wrong. example, in the book of genesis, God had prepared a perfect environment too (garden of Elden), however, it still can't change the fact that Adam and Eve fall by taking the forbidden fruit. i believe with all my heart that surely God had already know that this tragic day of all mankind will come to pass. but what is the key thing here. that is the freedom of choice that God given to us.

parent who heart broken for their children, sometime hold too much guilt to themselves that they are the one who cause all these mess in their family. but who can predict tomorrow, even parent already tried all their best to prevent it.

let your children grow in their own ways, as we started to let go and God will come into the picture. treat your children like the father in the parable of the 'prodigal son'. a heart that long for their children to turn back anytime and waited for them at the door will see the work of God's hand in their children life, as like the process of how God's turn the heart of the 'prodigal son' to come home. love and acceptance is what they needed most when they return home, and be careful for many times we react in a same way of the older brothers. as parent do their best and let God take the rest...

God is in control in any situation...

footsteps to the end...

2007-04-11T08:40:00.000-07:00

sometime i juz wonder, what are the things that we all everyday run and chase after to? ppl work hard, from morning till nite time, OT over OT and OT again...wat are the things they seek...?money, wealthy, fame, sense of achievements, or even sense of acceptance or very religious answer, worship Him with my performance? i used to think that, life is short and we should try all our best to live life to its potential and fullness. however what is fullness then...different ppl would have different views of it. i heard ppl said; 'i want to be success' or ' i want to prove that i'm not good for nothing' or even 'i want to provide the kind of life which my parent can have no worries of financial when they old in age'...seriously nothing wrong with it,instead, i though it was good to have ppl with vision rather than those who have not...their vision in life give them strength to keep moving on in life...those have not vision will be cast off restraint and ...as they endure and keep it on till da last breath of their lives they would say i have not regret in lives for i did my very best till the end...my view of success have totally change, ever since i read the book of a gal name rachel joy scott, one the columbine victim in 1999...as i mentioned before, i thought that being a successful christian in life was to make a different in the world...indeed i'm right...at least most the leaders of church will agree with tat...bt da problem was, whether fruitful ornot, is it depending on uR result of uR success business or invention...r we look at the things that the world see, chase after the thing that this world running to..?i pray for wisdom from above bt not from the earth...everythin that of this world where should i place it, if after i gt all of it after my hard work...i am nothing at the end if i win the whole world and lost my own soul...my purpose seem purposeless, my future seem unpredicted.i cry out oh God...even a gal who only has 17 years of life live to its fullness than those who lived more than she did...she didn't earn her 1st millions, 1st degree or even husband...bt i believe and most of ppl believe, that she, find please in His sight and said ' well done my faithful servant' when she meet Him face to face...what have she done, it juz non other than live a life that make Jesus so comfortable and available to everyone that she met and talked to...the real God's purpose in life, is only reserve for those who realized they are nvr to b gd enough by their own therefore totally submit their life in Him...put uR trust in him, for He nvr fail u...open the door of uR future with Jesus, then He will lead u by the footsteps that He set long 2000 years ago, to the end with joy...

dilemma

2007-03-09T21:33:00.000-08:00

let me share about my life this week. recently i receive a call from a very special one. i never seen this man about 5 to 6 years maybe. he is so special that i really have to think very carefully how to introduce him to others. he is my mom ex-boyfriend, and i used to called him 'lau tao' when i was study at primary school. we were close to each other but something happen, then he left. and i though this was quite funny, imagine now, if anyone ask me who is this man when we having lunch together or something like that. once again. there are certain consequences that will pass down through the previous generation. according to research done in America, teenage who suffer identity crisis are majority from broken family background. famous psychology such as Freud, Jung, Adler state that the first 12 years of our life is the most significant years for human development in personalities, healthy mentality and form attitude toward life. child is like a seed, it looks small and tiny, but no one can deny that the unmeasurable potential in it. here was a question, how can a child, who like a seed, grown in such environment that will make it now produce any good fruits or dead even before it become mature enough to bear fruits?

honor...

2007-03-02T21:37:00.000-08:00

my first week back to KL was really a busy week.finish my last paper of mid term yesterday, and next week have quizzes and assignments. it's not yet the time for me to slow down man.
I'm looking for houses this few days and i can tell you is definitely not an easy job.it's got more works need to be done than i ever imagine. how great are those who can stay with their parent and not need to worry all this stuff. anyway, i believe one day all of us will go through this experience. it's just the matter of time.
we need to honor our parent, as well as our sibling and our family members. it's a blessing that we can stay under the same root with our family. thought many people had told me this before, but it's become so real for me when i come to study at KL . I'm not saying that must not move out away from Your parent for the rest of your life, but i encourage that,try all your best to honor them as long as the day when u got up u still see their faces.
why? the first reason will be honor our parent is one of the command from God. for more info please read eph 6:1-4. one of the speaker told me this, "the way you treat your parent it's reflect the love u have for God". I'm agree with this statement, how can you love your invisible parent before u love your parent, and how will you treat Your heavenly father if you don't ever know how to treat your earthly parent? we have no choice, in choosing what kind of parent we want, parent is a gift from God to and we should love everything that God has blessed us with.
secondly, honor them because you will become parent one day. it's true that children learn from their model, include parent, older brother and sister. therefore the way you treat your parent now will reflect later on in Your life how you been treated. its goes like a circle, if you don't break the circle of this bad relationship it will continue on to your next generation. it's your choice to become a breaker or creator of it. my dad left my mom and go with another girl when i was the age of 6. anger and unforgiven spirit fill my childhood year toward this kind of irresponsible father that i had. but after i come to know God, God changed me and He give me wisdom to think which the right thing to do for my father. i can tell you friend it's not easy to forgive and it's take time. all these years i try to reach out to my father side family and pray for a open door for me. it's definitely not easy, imagine they will question your intention of coming back. however friend, i believe the power of will that i choice to become a breaker rather just let there till my nest generation. it's hard to maintain a good relationship, but we strive for it for our next generation and for God's kingdom. therefore, start to honor our family now.

chinese new year

2007-02-23T08:32:00.000-08:00

wow spending most of my time with my mom throughout my holiday...seriously i didn't expect would spend such a great time with her...i think is the best of my life...i want to continue with my previous topic which talk about quality time...according to a research done at America, the most influential people among youth at 1960 is parent, follow by teacher and spiritual leader...however, down to 2000, friends become the most influential people to teenage, follow by media, such as music, movie, and advertisements, and thirdly parent. praise God parent still somehow be in the part of the teenage of America...and unfortunately, spiritual leader drop form 3 to 17 among 20 different people the list...a real big chance after a 40 years and we can hear 'peer pressure' anywhere from teenage but definitely not about their parent or pastor or cell leader...we can state that quality time is one of the many factor that cause this outcome...quality time determined your relationship with one particular person, is common sense that we will only spend our time with the one we think is important to us, time is precious and i believe everyone know that...therefor to maintain a healthy and close relationship with one another, we need time of spending together...same concept apply to family as well...we can see that most of the family issues occur because they lack of time spending, or understanding each other...parent who busy on work or kids that hang out with their peers rather than parent cause this 'misunderstand' between each other...very often we hear people arguing said that "i thought you are like that" or something similar to that...we need time together therefore we have a better understanding with each other, a time of communication...

quality time

2007-02-03T21:32:00.000-08:00

i grew up in a broken family.my dad left me, so mom and i stay with grandma, aunt, uncle and cousins over the 12 years, well i think so.we eventually become a family, 13 of us staying together.i really want to thank God for this family that i have because they really taking a very good care to me while i am alone, especially my mom went on with her plan, which to work outside of this country.i can't imagine how would i be if i grew up without them.probably spending most of my time alone at home after school, playing alone or watching cartoon alone.and you know, a child will never learn how to develop themselves when there is no one for them to look up to.they'll not how to distinguish what is right and wrong, so on this will lead them astray.children need quality time with their parent and family members.

a friend of mine, who experience the similar childhood background with me,who parent divorce,mom busy with work therefore seldom spend time with them and attention for her children.during the normal day, his house only left a servant and his brother .he is a very nice guy to be with, funny, easy going, friendly and lot of joy just chit-chat with him.nothing wrong with his personality,instead, he has the potential to become someone that has a really bright future just because of his friendliness and how he related to different kind of people, and people just love hanging with him. however, i made a mistake.i lose the influence in his life. it's already a long time didn't catch up with him, and i learned that he is go through something just because of what he did last time. i felt and sorry and regret until now.he used to be one of my youth member, who really on fire and active for His service.but this did not last long.he used to tell me that he felt that no one care for him at youth, always being alone and no one to talk with.to be frank, i didn't really take his word seriously that time because i think how you can be 'no one care for you' in youth? i mean, not only me but people just love to hang out with you.there are our youth pastor, youth leader, cell leader and other aunts and uncles who really care about you, i thought you are the center of my youth attention.it could be true,or it may be not.he left youth no long after he talked to me, and what i heard and find out from him, he now hanging out with his outside friends who smoke, drink, gangster ism,and few are drop out from school.i am completely lose the influence is his life. i can't give him the attention that he want but his friend could.attention that he fails to seek when he is young while searching for his identity.we try our best to talk with him, but he refuse to walk away from his friends.what can we do after that, only pray for him.

see, family come first is a very common phase in our life, but what if family did not come first like my friend, he don't even have a very good relationship with all his family members, quarrel with his mom, frighting with his brother and a servant, or kakak who don't care about what going on as long as works that can made her get paid.people need belonging, whether it is friends or material stuff when they fail to seek attention, with love, caring, sense of secure that can find in family.human never mean to live alone, this is no God plan for us.He design the concept of family so that we can have someone to depend and rely on.quality time will help them learn that his family members actually care about them and love them.and hat is the point of staying together?

i bet there is non other than spending QUALITY TIME with the one we love.

background...

2007-01-26T07:38:00.000-08:00

first please allow me to share about my family here.
my family wasn't perfect,in fact it wasn't an example to follow.with a marriage that took place when my mom was 20 and give birth to me when 22, as well as a father that don't hold a stable job, everyone predicted that this relationship is not going to last long.at the end, 6 years after give birth to a son the relationship come to an end.perhaps,this could be the only way to them. what are the things that both of them left behind , as the relationship end?
well, they left a 6 years old boy that don't know a thing from adult world, a boy that don't know why his father suddenly disappear after one night, a boy that suddenly realized that his father never come to fetch him back from school again.they left hatred, not only to themselves but cause both family into a problem that last until now.
i grow up in this kind of environment.i can be very honest to you that i used to be a rebellion, self-seeking, depression kid.even there r few time i have though about suicide because of an very little argument with my family members. i don't have a very good social life even when im study in primary school because of my bad personalities. for me, i think that this world is unfair to me and seem like no one care for me.i become very self-seeking because of this mind set.
but thank God im change because of His love for me.i learned to accept my past and look forward not the past.Praise Him amen!!!

2007-01-22T07:00:00.000-08:00