the last night at KL 2007...

im kind of bored thought, so been thinking y not juz write some stuff here while im waiting for my on9 movie to be loaded...hehe

tonite havin my cell again. and im very blessed by it...especially when it's comes to da sharing of the Word...(i knw this blog is getting longer but i try my best to make it short and nice ya)

PRAISE, what does it brings up to u when u see or hear this word?well im not here to giv u a bible lecture but to share some of my thoughts here...i believe that praise is one of the things that ppl very often talk about but doesn't always mean it...to said that, many ppl r actually taking 'praise' for granted. truely bible said we shuld praise God in all times...but i'm saying that kind of praise which come from the bottom of uR heart and the deepest of uR feeling that beyond the circumstances around can u bound from praising God.

everyday we praise God for his blessing in life, but da most powerful praise i ever seen in life is called the 'sacrifices of praise'. which mean to praise God that actually cost something from u (sacrifices), it can mean in a bad situation, da lost of uR love one, get into a serious bad injures, persecuted or one day u find that u had failed all of uR exams (arghh...can't u feel that now?). yap, it's to praise God when u feel the least, most unwanted and unwilling to praise Him...because from the moment we start praising God, we r moving our focus to God and not on our problems anymore...

psalm 34:3 (NKJV)

"Oh, magnify the LORD with me,

And let us exalt His name together."

wat does a magnifier does? it's to help us FOCUS on an item which we are hardly to see in our everyday life basis...same thing apply here in this verse, when we start to praising God beyong our circumstances, we are acutally allowing God to be MAGNIFY in our situation and declare that God is mighty to save above all our circumstances...for the Word said in ps 50:23, that

"He who sacrifices thank- offerings honours me,

and he prepares the way so that I may show him the salvation of God."

The God's salvation comes only after to those realized that God is the ultimate authority of all circumatances and by doing that, praises that come with a sacrifice must been presented unto Him. for faith is what God look for in order for Him to come into our life. praises will lift up our level faith and by that level of faith God is able to create for miracles into our situation. im not saying this based on nth, but u can flip uR bible to the story of how joshua destroy the mighty wall of jericho simply by praising and singing to the LORD, also how King Jehoshaphat putting the worship leader at da frontline of the army and eventually God handed over their enemies to Judah...

so friend what is the language of faith? it's none other than HALLELUJAH (praise the LORD)...therefore don't simply use this Word for joking la...later u kena zip-zap (ligthing) then baru u knw...hehe...hope u been bless and sry, it's another long one...haiz...

ps=we can't be expecting our life is free from troubles, but hope that through my sharing of the power of praise u can be encourage and nvr lose heart in God, coz He is oweyz there when u r needed...He nvr leave us, nor forsake us...GOD BLESS!!!

stephen chow

haha stephen chow is probably one of the most successful hk's actor in the world today. he is famous among the Chinese community and beyond that, even my maid also know who is this 'chow xin che' about.

to many ppl stephen chow is a comedian and funny joker in the movie industry. but to me he is more than that.

some ppl has said that he is actually a philosopher, communicated his idea through his movies and performances. at 1st im not sure about this, until lately i watch one of his recent movie...there is scene go on like this...



in the night of the sea shore, there is nth except darkness there. a girl who is a prostitute ask him, "can u see anything(sea shore)except darkness? it's like my life that i can't see anything in front of me." then he replied, "no ahh, if u sit here until the next morning then u will not only see the 1st light of the sun, and it's very beautiful too"



this conversation has struck me though, sometime we are very keen to see the result here and now, but if we keep holding on and believe, one day we gonna see the 1st light from the sun and will see and enjoy the beauty of it. it may be dark now, but surely light will come one day.

who so important..?

God used people to change or even destroy our life...so i believe we all need to acknowledge some of them and here is my own little reflection of how my social life has been doing over the few years...and wonder how God has brought me through all these friends and closed one i had...
first but not least...

vector...

someone that beyond the expression of word to me...lol...to those who know me u will HOW close this felow to me...yes...he is the one who dare me to do stupid things in any occasions and any seasons...once in the blue moon we will have ours 'fried fish gang' together juz to talk about some very 'manly' issue...best buddy on earth...

janice...

someone that i will remember even until the end of my life...great both leader and servant of God...a teacher, a leader,a best youth pastor, a friend, and a boss to me...nvr forget my good old days that i been working like a donkey under her...hehe...learning so much from her and thx so much for teaching me to become everything i am today...wonder whether i wan share this ornot, but nvr mind la...u knw what is the 1st question she ask me when we first know each other...
the answer is..."when is the last time u went to 'pang sei'...that time i only seen her no more than 3 times...

calvin ( dear roomate)... the one who bring me to Christ and 3 years after upgrading himself to become my roommate...definitely it's not easy to stay together but thx a lot for all the over night talk that now i know i can grown even when we just spend time talking about non sense...but thx God we still 'peace' with each other(he's sleeping beside me now)...famous motto, "why like that one ar?"

candy leong...
basically she is the one who 'guilty' of my 'longing' of being fashionable...haiz...what to do when u have a mother like mine...and i very proud of her...loving, caring, encouraging? well she is definitely more than that to me...

Job(bible character)...his passion and love for God that is so unshakeable even in time of troubles and sadness...very much been touch by a phrase that he said and believe will be my verse of life..."naked i come and naked i should depart...the LOrd gives and takes away, BLESSED BE YOUR NAME"...power man!!!

jesus...

what u think about it...?well...i would said 'everything is changing'...he is so cool~~~~

something to talk about...

to be frank really have no ideas what i should write here...but i just felt the urges to write now therefore here i am...

this week has been an awesome week to me...especially in church...strong presence of God...strong praise and worship...and strong preaching of the Words and so and so...week in and week out this is what i always did and sometime to the extent that i treated this as a weekly routine, or even worse, probably another religion practice to me...every week involved in ministry serving, going for prayer mtg, cell group, christian fellowship, weekend service, and bible study make me wonder that actually how much time i had spend in the house of God, treating it as a 'duty' rather than an act of worship for God...from the outside perhaps people wouldn't noticed what has going on inside of me but deep in heart i know what the condition of my heart...and HE is well aware of it too...to elaborate it furthermore...i felt that i treating Christianity(which once changed my life upside down completely) as an IDOL...i could not believed it that I'm using such detestable sin to link it with my Jesus...but i need to be frank to you friends...over the few month this is what is going on inside of me...I'm doing His work without anything have to do with the RELATIONSHIP with Him...one thing that i can't admitted is that i have grown a lot in understanding the Word ever since i came down to KL...but instead of drawing closer to God in felt that I'm become more like a Pharisee...doing what is written in the law but just missed out one important thing...the humanity to accept Christ and His RELATIONSHIP...how many of u know that your vision can not be driven in the right track if u're not right in the relationship with Him...so many times i had put myself in the service of God and believing that i am doing something that pleases Him...I'm so wrong and i need to make right with him immediately...how many times i had the negative thoughts toward someone in the leadership...how many time i had ever try to bring down someone by Church politic...how many times i had complained about certain issues and people when thing doesn't go on my way in church...and how many times had i...reminded of all the sins i had committed in the house of God, one day God just come to me and said softly on my ear: "I have a second chance for you..."
on the way of my 'faithful' service to God i lost the RELATIONSHIP with my master...producing good fruits and great harvest...sure...but what if i can save thousand upon thousand of people but ironically i lost my life before His throne at the end of my life...here i wanna make a re-commitment with God again...that i will treat ministry as a privilege rather than a duty, treat leader with a grateful heart rather than condemn them, treat people with understanding rather than harsh judgemental, live sacrificially for other instead pulling responsible to others, praying rather than complaining, JOY instead of BITTERNESS...
now i have strength, the joy that fall in love with Him again...good and bad just an paper away...attitude interpret the world u see...

ps. if i had offense anyone here...im very sry for it...i wrote this one shot without any changes of sentence except wrong spelling...

RISE UP...'OLD-LADIES'!!!!

never walk alone!!!

we fought a good fight

"TREZEGOL'


NEDVED!!!

wow what a great week we had...i'm very sorry if there are any Livorno's fans here...hahaha...

It couldn't have started any better... Juv had an explosive start!!! They defeated Livorno 5-1, thanks in particular to a great finale (three goals in the last 10 minutes): a warning for everybody( AC n Inter, watch out!!!)

that's a feeling that i can't explained with any verbals right now...it's just amazing to see your fav team to return with such performance in their first official match...

LOVE them when they do well, LOVE them even when they failed...my blood is flow with BLACK and WHITE...

self-esteem...

"You can't touch it, but it affects how you feel. You can't see it, but it's there when you look at yourself in the mirror. You can't hear it, but it's there every time you talk about yourself. What is this important but mysterious thing? It's your self-esteem!"

haha...well if u know me very well...u'll probably know how much this word means to me...
self-esteem wouldn't be the most important thing in your life but it's definitely something that you won't neglect of.

every time when i about to go out, doesn't matter to meet my grandma, to go warison or midvally, or to makan or even to play basketball(Eric Chong u know what i talking la...hahah), i will make sure the last thing that i look at before i went out is the MIRROR...

no only that, windows of the shops or cars which contains 'a little bit' of reflection will surely see me 'dancing' in front it just to make sure everything going 'smoothly', 'in place' and little of 'extraordinary'...

researchers tell us that people who suffer self esteem is continuously rising nowadays...and it's not only youth's problems, it's a HUMAN's problem...consciously or sub-consciously, we all making our life decisions based on the value system of this world, that we all look at the outward, then only to the inward...fairly tells educated our children that, our celebrities tells us that, our customers shows us that(u will well aware of it if u r a salesman or saleswoman), everyone tells us about this value system every days...

what God look at this issue? even a prophet look at this way as well, Samuel thought David's brothers were matching with all the requirements to become a king, but remember what God said? He said '...i look at the heart, not outward appearance'.

what is the outward appearance here, well it can be uR result, outcome, talent, skill, or simply just appearance...but none of this is important to God, what God want is a 'heart' that long after Him...David fulfill this requirement while everyone of His generation fails...

sometime i find that people who do not know God a bit hard for them to understand that uR self-worth is not proven by uR academic, uR position, uR salary, uR capacity of moral and etc, but just simple because of WHO YOU ARE...God probably wouldn't love what u r doing, but He definitely love u as a person but no uR works, that is why salvation is a free gift, it's a grace of God...

uR self esteem will not merely judge by uR appearance, how many medals u had won for uR sport day, uR 'A's, uR wealth, but simple because WHO YOU ARE...imagine u r a father, u definitely won't judge uR son value by His work right...?love them as who they are...

p.s.= David been said as a handsome man too...this world is so unfair la...

fold uR blanket...

i think i not really that type of person who will regularly do the clean up works of my room, fold my blanket every time i got up from my bed and even will always come 'sharp' and on time to a meeting.

ok la...don't spoil my own reputation so much...actually i did one...hahha...just the matter of make it more consistently mahh...

i think many of us find it quite often in our life daily life, right..?especially folding blanket for all the guys out there( oppss, feel like i will soon start an argument after stating this statement)...i don't know what others think la, but for me, why need to fold something that will last like....well maybe 2 - 3 hours?ya u know what i mean or not...?is like, it still gonna become as messy as today early morning when u just woke up right, no matter how nice u fold it... true?

perhaps this is one of the areas that i need to improve...and i definitely know that it's a good thing to fold uR blanket, but somehow...haiz...spirit of 'malas' bah...

see, in a small thing like this probably a lot of people won't put into concern...like what so big deal about it..?but not so on God's sight. God's Word stated clearly that everything that we do, we must do it all for the glory of God...

on the other word, excellent is what God want to see in us ...excellent means to aim for something with good quality...and 'good quality' can be very subjective in many others perspectives...as for me, excellent is an attitude, not merely defined as the final result or outcomes of uR effort...

many people nowadays care more about their destination rather than how they been to that place...with that mentality of 'as long as i reach my goal, how i go there is not a matter anymore'...imagine a group of runners racing without any rules...they cut lane, run through the padang instead of the running lane, tackle others while they running and do all difference kinds of things just make sure himself can stand on the plundit...do u still get excited about the champion of this game or not...?well i believe I'm more excited about the process la seriously...will be supper funny i guess... since everyone 'main buyuk'...this is not excellent all about...

so do everything with spirit of excellency, as for the glory of God...doesn't matter big things or little things in life...if God can entrusted u with little things (fold uR blanket), what makes u think that He will not entrusted u with BIG things...detail determined destiny, attitude of life is far more important than uR degree or uR intellectual...attitude is the key to uR successful life...

God called us to be excel in everything that we do.
y? because God himself is a God of excellent.

look at us...he make all of us so difference from others...and His plan for us far even greater...

thank you Lord...

who knows?

a lot of parents nowadays thought that if they have the financial advantage and strength to provide their children a perfect environment( best education, best Sunday school, best culture to adapt, best parenting technique from #1 best-sell parenting book writer), then they can assured that they children will have no doubt that to become someone who has a bright future, someone that can achieve great things later on in life.

however, there are still no guarantee of what kind of your children will become in the future.parent nowadays holding too much hope and expectation from their children, to the extend that to push their children to a stage where they can no longer have the right, or even ability to decide something in their life. everything included toys that they should play, type of instrument they should learn, sport to play, friends to hang out, etc. once again it is nothing wrong for wanting to give your children the best and speak words of wisdom into their life. on the other hand, even God himself had demonstrate giving the BEST to us( HE give His only son for the world). so what the thing that really matter here?

no one could decide what kind of life they should live, not their parent and not even God, for God has given us to freedom to choice, between what is right and wrong. example, in the book of genesis, God had prepared a perfect environment too (garden of Elden), however, it still can't change the fact that Adam and Eve fall by taking the forbidden fruit. i believe with all my heart that surely God had already know that this tragic day of all mankind will come to pass. but what is the key thing here. that is the freedom of choice that God given to us.

parent who heart broken for their children, sometime hold too much guilt to themselves that they are the one who cause all these mess in their family. but who can predict tomorrow, even parent already tried all their best to prevent it.

let your children grow in their own ways, as we started to let go and God will come into the picture. treat your children like the father in the parable of the 'prodigal son'. a heart that long for their children to turn back anytime and waited for them at the door will see the work of God's hand in their children life, as like the process of how God's turn the heart of the 'prodigal son' to come home. love and acceptance is what they needed most when they return home, and be careful for many times we react in a same way of the older brothers. as parent do their best and let God take the rest...

God is in control in any situation...

footsteps to the end...

sometime i juz wonder, what are the things that we all everyday run and chase after to? ppl work hard, from morning till nite time, OT over OT and OT again...wat are the things they seek...?money, wealthy, fame, sense of achievements, or even sense of acceptance or very religious answer, worship Him with my performance? i used to think that, life is short and we should try all our best to live life to its potential and fullness. however what is fullness then...different ppl would have different views of it. i heard ppl said; 'i want to be success' or ' i want to prove that i'm not good for nothing' or even 'i want to provide the kind of life which my parent can have no worries of financial when they old in age'...seriously nothing wrong with it,instead, i though it was good to have ppl with vision rather than those who have not...their vision in life give them strength to keep moving on in life...those have not vision will be cast off restraint and ...as they endure and keep it on till da last breath of their lives they would say i have not regret in lives for i did my very best till the end...my view of success have totally change, ever since i read the book of a gal name rachel joy scott, one the columbine victim in 1999...as i mentioned before, i thought that being a successful christian in life was to make a different in the world...indeed i'm right...at least most the leaders of church will agree with tat...bt da problem was, whether fruitful ornot, is it depending on uR result of uR success business or invention...r we look at the things that the world see, chase after the thing that this world running to..?i pray for wisdom from above bt not from the earth...everythin that of this world where should i place it, if after i gt all of it after my hard work...i am nothing at the end if i win the whole world and lost my own soul...my purpose seem purposeless, my future seem unpredicted.i cry out oh God...even a gal who only has 17 years of life live to its fullness than those who lived more than she did...she didn't earn her 1st millions, 1st degree or even husband...bt i believe and most of ppl believe, that she, find please in His sight and said ' well done my faithful servant' when she meet Him face to face...what have she done, it juz non other than live a life that make Jesus so comfortable and available to everyone that she met and talked to...the real God's purpose in life, is only reserve for those who realized they are nvr to b gd enough by their own therefore totally submit their life in Him...put uR trust in him, for He nvr fail u...open the door of uR future with Jesus, then He will lead u by the footsteps that He set long 2000 years ago, to the end with joy...

dilemma

let me share about my life this week. recently i receive a call from a very special one. i never seen this man about 5 to 6 years maybe. he is so special that i really have to think very carefully how to introduce him to others. he is my mom ex-boyfriend, and i used to called him 'lau tao' when i was study at primary school. we were close to each other but something happen, then he left. and i though this was quite funny, imagine now, if anyone ask me who is this man when we having lunch together or something like that. once again. there are certain consequences that will pass down through the previous generation. according to research done in America, teenage who suffer identity crisis are majority from broken family background. famous psychology such as Freud, Jung, Adler state that the first 12 years of our life is the most significant years for human development in personalities, healthy mentality and form attitude toward life. child is like a seed, it looks small and tiny, but no one can deny that the unmeasurable potential in it. here was a question, how can a child, who like a seed, grown in such environment that will make it now produce any good fruits or dead even before it become mature enough to bear fruits?

honor...

my first week back to KL was really a busy week.finish my last paper of mid term yesterday, and next week have quizzes and assignments. it's not yet the time for me to slow down man.
I'm looking for houses this few days and i can tell you is definitely not an easy job.it's got more works need to be done than i ever imagine. how great are those who can stay with their parent and not need to worry all this stuff. anyway, i believe one day all of us will go through this experience. it's just the matter of time.
we need to honor our parent, as well as our sibling and our family members. it's a blessing that we can stay under the same root with our family. thought many people had told me this before, but it's become so real for me when i come to study at KL . I'm not saying that must not move out away from Your parent for the rest of your life, but i encourage that,try all your best to honor them as long as the day when u got up u still see their faces.
why? the first reason will be honor our parent is one of the command from God. for more info please read eph 6:1-4. one of the speaker told me this, "the way you treat your parent it's reflect the love u have for God". I'm agree with this statement, how can you love your invisible parent before u love your parent, and how will you treat Your heavenly father if you don't ever know how to treat your earthly parent? we have no choice, in choosing what kind of parent we want, parent is a gift from God to and we should love everything that God has blessed us with.
secondly, honor them because you will become parent one day. it's true that children learn from their model, include parent, older brother and sister. therefore the way you treat your parent now will reflect later on in Your life how you been treated. its goes like a circle, if you don't break the circle of this bad relationship it will continue on to your next generation. it's your choice to become a breaker or creator of it. my dad left my mom and go with another girl when i was the age of 6. anger and unforgiven spirit fill my childhood year toward this kind of irresponsible father that i had. but after i come to know God, God changed me and He give me wisdom to think which the right thing to do for my father. i can tell you friend it's not easy to forgive and it's take time. all these years i try to reach out to my father side family and pray for a open door for me. it's definitely not easy, imagine they will question your intention of coming back. however friend, i believe the power of will that i choice to become a breaker rather just let there till my nest generation. it's hard to maintain a good relationship, but we strive for it for our next generation and for God's kingdom. therefore, start to honor our family now.

chinese new year

wow spending most of my time with my mom throughout my holiday...seriously i didn't expect would spend such a great time with her...i think is the best of my life...i want to continue with my previous topic which talk about quality time...according to a research done at America, the most influential people among youth at 1960 is parent, follow by teacher and spiritual leader...however, down to 2000, friends become the most influential people to teenage, follow by media, such as music, movie, and advertisements, and thirdly parent. praise God parent still somehow be in the part of the teenage of America...and unfortunately, spiritual leader drop form 3 to 17 among 20 different people the list...a real big chance after a 40 years and we can hear 'peer pressure' anywhere from teenage but definitely not about their parent or pastor or cell leader...we can state that quality time is one of the many factor that cause this outcome...quality time determined your relationship with one particular person, is common sense that we will only spend our time with the one we think is important to us, time is precious and i believe everyone know that...therefor to maintain a healthy and close relationship with one another, we need time of spending together...same concept apply to family as well...we can see that most of the family issues occur because they lack of time spending, or understanding each other...parent who busy on work or kids that hang out with their peers rather than parent cause this 'misunderstand' between each other...very often we hear people arguing said that "i thought you are like that" or something similar to that...we need time together therefore we have a better understanding with each other, a time of communication...

quality time

i grew up in a broken family.my dad left me, so mom and i stay with grandma, aunt, uncle and cousins over the 12 years, well i think so.we eventually become a family, 13 of us staying together.i really want to thank God for this family that i have because they really taking a very good care to me while i am alone, especially my mom went on with her plan, which to work outside of this country.i can't imagine how would i be if i grew up without them.probably spending most of my time alone at home after school, playing alone or watching cartoon alone.and you know, a child will never learn how to develop themselves when there is no one for them to look up to.they'll not how to distinguish what is right and wrong, so on this will lead them astray.children need quality time with their parent and family members.

a friend of mine, who experience the similar childhood background with me,who parent divorce,mom busy with work therefore seldom spend time with them and attention for her children.during the normal day, his house only left a servant and his brother .he is a very nice guy to be with, funny, easy going, friendly and lot of joy just chit-chat with him.nothing wrong with his personality,instead, he has the potential to become someone that has a really bright future just because of his friendliness and how he related to different kind of people, and people just love hanging with him. however, i made a mistake.i lose the influence in his life. it's already a long time didn't catch up with him, and i learned that he is go through something just because of what he did last time. i felt and sorry and regret until now.he used to be one of my youth member, who really on fire and active for His service.but this did not last long.he used to tell me that he felt that no one care for him at youth, always being alone and no one to talk with.to be frank, i didn't really take his word seriously that time because i think how you can be 'no one care for you' in youth? i mean, not only me but people just love to hang out with you.there are our youth pastor, youth leader, cell leader and other aunts and uncles who really care about you, i thought you are the center of my youth attention.it could be true,or it may be not.he left youth no long after he talked to me, and what i heard and find out from him, he now hanging out with his outside friends who smoke, drink, gangster ism,and few are drop out from school.i am completely lose the influence is his life. i can't give him the attention that he want but his friend could.attention that he fails to seek when he is young while searching for his identity.we try our best to talk with him, but he refuse to walk away from his friends.what can we do after that, only pray for him.

see, family come first is a very common phase in our life, but what if family did not come first like my friend, he don't even have a very good relationship with all his family members, quarrel with his mom, frighting with his brother and a servant, or kakak who don't care about what going on as long as works that can made her get paid.people need belonging, whether it is friends or material stuff when they fail to seek attention, with love, caring, sense of secure that can find in family.human never mean to live alone, this is no God plan for us.He design the concept of family so that we can have someone to depend and rely on.quality time will help them learn that his family members actually care about them and love them.and hat is the point of staying together?

i bet there is non other than spending QUALITY TIME with the one we love.

background...

first please allow me to share about my family here.
my family wasn't perfect,in fact it wasn't an example to follow.with a marriage that took place when my mom was 20 and give birth to me when 22, as well as a father that don't hold a stable job, everyone predicted that this relationship is not going to last long.at the end, 6 years after give birth to a son the relationship come to an end.perhaps,this could be the only way to them. what are the things that both of them left behind , as the relationship end?
well, they left a 6 years old boy that don't know a thing from adult world, a boy that don't know why his father suddenly disappear after one night, a boy that suddenly realized that his father never come to fetch him back from school again.they left hatred, not only to themselves but cause both family into a problem that last until now.
i grow up in this kind of environment.i can be very honest to you that i used to be a rebellion, self-seeking, depression kid.even there r few time i have though about suicide because of an very little argument with my family members. i don't have a very good social life even when im study in primary school because of my bad personalities. for me, i think that this world is unfair to me and seem like no one care for me.i become very self-seeking because of this mind set.
but thank God im change because of His love for me.i learned to accept my past and look forward not the past.Praise Him amen!!!