uniqueness

one day i asked my mom this question, why u still wanna dress up uRself if we are only goin to meet up our old relatives? then she answer me back, "i'm not dress up for other people, i dress up only myself"...straight away, i was stun there...
people oweyz told me this when i first started my christian journey, "u r unique in God's eye, He made you different and special from others."
i wonder how long i never heard that kind of encouragement since then...
one thing i oweyz keep reminding myself is that i'm made for a purpose and special in His eye... as well as the world could see that "i'm different and special" from many of them...however, i've changed even when i myself didn't realizing it...the way i dress up, way i talk and so on...hav been so "un-alvin"...i must admit that ppl is one of the factor...sometime i'm too caught out wif how other people would think of me what if i fail them...
i've been 'dress up' becoz of others, not for myself...i wonder why that people especially in a big city r so caught out wif identity and 'GANG"...?can i juz be myself of the way i style my hair, wat kind of food to eat or should i juz share exactly the same thoughts we all share...?sometime i felt like im living in a robot world, where everyone look da SAME or trying to be da SAME...

driver seat...

i received something very interesting last night when we( cal n me) were praying for our goals for this year...hope you'll be blessed...

i was driving a car to a place where i never been before. i have no clue about where is it and how i gonna reach there, and all i can refer to was the 'sign-board' along the road and a guy who i dun know sitting beside me. i was confused at times and turn into lots and lots of wrong junctions as i was still trying to find a WAY out to get to the place. moreover, u know it very well about the condition of our Malaysia's 'sign-board'...it leads u to no way!!!( not all the times la but absolutely sometimes)

so here i am in lost. although there are few times the guy who sitting next to me had giving me some SUGGESTION about the direction. and in fact i felt that I'm getting more and more closer to my destination after with his feedback. but still, i couldn't find it. then he said:
"let me take the driver seat."
"no, i don't know you", i replied.
and i tried another few mores round but still couldn't get the WAY.then he said again:
"let me take the driver seat"
"no, i think i can handle this, besides that i don't know you"
then he replied,
"you can don't know about my WAY but you can't don't know me. and now let me take you home."
and all in a sudden i know who this guy is. He is The Way.
for so long i have been taken the driver seat and allow God sit next to me. at first i thought it was OK for God still with me anyway. but 1 thing i lack of is that the intention of God. through this i know that God hasn't really happy for just sitting on the passenger's seat, He wants to TAKES us and LEADS us.

friends where do you see yourself in right now? who is sitting at the driver seat? i don't know about you, but my journey is still haven't end, and this time round God is my driver. assuredly i don't know where i am heading to, but with Him, why should i so eager to know.

see the world through Your eye...

this month i hav recieved 2 part time job offers at KL...one is working as a promoter of a famous brand at Malaysia and another one as a service crew of a...also quite a well known japanese restourant at Malaysia la...believe me, now i can said to u with all my heart that "money is not easy to earn"...i dun knw bout u if u were in my situation, bt i took both of the jobs...same time...(haiyo too desperate edi tat time)
i nearly gt myself burn out over this period...im stress out and frustrated about my life and things that r happen in my work place such as a boss that very high demand on uR work time and disagreement and so on...after a while i started regrading of my choice simply because i can't c my future there felt like a waste of time...and i complained it to God n hope that will gt any encouragement there n wat He reply really blow my mind...He said that "this is what u wan, not wat i wan. i already have something installed for u bt since u dun wan to take it then u will settle the second best"...all in a sudden i become silent and u knw...juz stun turn there n dun knw wat should i said next...God is teaching me a lesson over this time...not all the doors that open to me are from Him...no matter how good it seems to be...some r from the world n some even perhaps r after by uR own desire...settle for the Best or the second best of uR life? u choice uRself...for wat i knw is, God's way always is the better way and i really learned it by this time round...God Bless!!!

jer 29:11, "For I know the plan I had for u,..."
pro 3:5-6, "Trust in the LORD...and He shall makes your path straight"

the last night at KL 2007...

im kind of bored thought, so been thinking y not juz write some stuff here while im waiting for my on9 movie to be loaded...hehe

tonite havin my cell again. and im very blessed by it...especially when it's comes to da sharing of the Word...(i knw this blog is getting longer but i try my best to make it short and nice ya)

PRAISE, what does it brings up to u when u see or hear this word?well im not here to giv u a bible lecture but to share some of my thoughts here...i believe that praise is one of the things that ppl very often talk about but doesn't always mean it...to said that, many ppl r actually taking 'praise' for granted. truely bible said we shuld praise God in all times...but i'm saying that kind of praise which come from the bottom of uR heart and the deepest of uR feeling that beyond the circumstances around can u bound from praising God.

everyday we praise God for his blessing in life, but da most powerful praise i ever seen in life is called the 'sacrifices of praise'. which mean to praise God that actually cost something from u (sacrifices), it can mean in a bad situation, da lost of uR love one, get into a serious bad injures, persecuted or one day u find that u had failed all of uR exams (arghh...can't u feel that now?). yap, it's to praise God when u feel the least, most unwanted and unwilling to praise Him...because from the moment we start praising God, we r moving our focus to God and not on our problems anymore...

psalm 34:3 (NKJV)

"Oh, magnify the LORD with me,

And let us exalt His name together."

wat does a magnifier does? it's to help us FOCUS on an item which we are hardly to see in our everyday life basis...same thing apply here in this verse, when we start to praising God beyong our circumstances, we are acutally allowing God to be MAGNIFY in our situation and declare that God is mighty to save above all our circumstances...for the Word said in ps 50:23, that

"He who sacrifices thank- offerings honours me,

and he prepares the way so that I may show him the salvation of God."

The God's salvation comes only after to those realized that God is the ultimate authority of all circumatances and by doing that, praises that come with a sacrifice must been presented unto Him. for faith is what God look for in order for Him to come into our life. praises will lift up our level faith and by that level of faith God is able to create for miracles into our situation. im not saying this based on nth, but u can flip uR bible to the story of how joshua destroy the mighty wall of jericho simply by praising and singing to the LORD, also how King Jehoshaphat putting the worship leader at da frontline of the army and eventually God handed over their enemies to Judah...

so friend what is the language of faith? it's none other than HALLELUJAH (praise the LORD)...therefore don't simply use this Word for joking la...later u kena zip-zap (ligthing) then baru u knw...hehe...hope u been bless and sry, it's another long one...haiz...

ps=we can't be expecting our life is free from troubles, but hope that through my sharing of the power of praise u can be encourage and nvr lose heart in God, coz He is oweyz there when u r needed...He nvr leave us, nor forsake us...GOD BLESS!!!

stephen chow

haha stephen chow is probably one of the most successful hk's actor in the world today. he is famous among the Chinese community and beyond that, even my maid also know who is this 'chow xin che' about.

to many ppl stephen chow is a comedian and funny joker in the movie industry. but to me he is more than that.

some ppl has said that he is actually a philosopher, communicated his idea through his movies and performances. at 1st im not sure about this, until lately i watch one of his recent movie...there is scene go on like this...



in the night of the sea shore, there is nth except darkness there. a girl who is a prostitute ask him, "can u see anything(sea shore)except darkness? it's like my life that i can't see anything in front of me." then he replied, "no ahh, if u sit here until the next morning then u will not only see the 1st light of the sun, and it's very beautiful too"



this conversation has struck me though, sometime we are very keen to see the result here and now, but if we keep holding on and believe, one day we gonna see the 1st light from the sun and will see and enjoy the beauty of it. it may be dark now, but surely light will come one day.

who so important..?

God used people to change or even destroy our life...so i believe we all need to acknowledge some of them and here is my own little reflection of how my social life has been doing over the few years...and wonder how God has brought me through all these friends and closed one i had...
first but not least...

vector...

someone that beyond the expression of word to me...lol...to those who know me u will HOW close this felow to me...yes...he is the one who dare me to do stupid things in any occasions and any seasons...once in the blue moon we will have ours 'fried fish gang' together juz to talk about some very 'manly' issue...best buddy on earth...

janice...

someone that i will remember even until the end of my life...great both leader and servant of God...a teacher, a leader,a best youth pastor, a friend, and a boss to me...nvr forget my good old days that i been working like a donkey under her...hehe...learning so much from her and thx so much for teaching me to become everything i am today...wonder whether i wan share this ornot, but nvr mind la...u knw what is the 1st question she ask me when we first know each other...
the answer is..."when is the last time u went to 'pang sei'...that time i only seen her no more than 3 times...

calvin ( dear roomate)... the one who bring me to Christ and 3 years after upgrading himself to become my roommate...definitely it's not easy to stay together but thx a lot for all the over night talk that now i know i can grown even when we just spend time talking about non sense...but thx God we still 'peace' with each other(he's sleeping beside me now)...famous motto, "why like that one ar?"

candy leong...
basically she is the one who 'guilty' of my 'longing' of being fashionable...haiz...what to do when u have a mother like mine...and i very proud of her...loving, caring, encouraging? well she is definitely more than that to me...

Job(bible character)...his passion and love for God that is so unshakeable even in time of troubles and sadness...very much been touch by a phrase that he said and believe will be my verse of life..."naked i come and naked i should depart...the LOrd gives and takes away, BLESSED BE YOUR NAME"...power man!!!

jesus...

what u think about it...?well...i would said 'everything is changing'...he is so cool~~~~

something to talk about...

to be frank really have no ideas what i should write here...but i just felt the urges to write now therefore here i am...

this week has been an awesome week to me...especially in church...strong presence of God...strong praise and worship...and strong preaching of the Words and so and so...week in and week out this is what i always did and sometime to the extent that i treated this as a weekly routine, or even worse, probably another religion practice to me...every week involved in ministry serving, going for prayer mtg, cell group, christian fellowship, weekend service, and bible study make me wonder that actually how much time i had spend in the house of God, treating it as a 'duty' rather than an act of worship for God...from the outside perhaps people wouldn't noticed what has going on inside of me but deep in heart i know what the condition of my heart...and HE is well aware of it too...to elaborate it furthermore...i felt that i treating Christianity(which once changed my life upside down completely) as an IDOL...i could not believed it that I'm using such detestable sin to link it with my Jesus...but i need to be frank to you friends...over the few month this is what is going on inside of me...I'm doing His work without anything have to do with the RELATIONSHIP with Him...one thing that i can't admitted is that i have grown a lot in understanding the Word ever since i came down to KL...but instead of drawing closer to God in felt that I'm become more like a Pharisee...doing what is written in the law but just missed out one important thing...the humanity to accept Christ and His RELATIONSHIP...how many of u know that your vision can not be driven in the right track if u're not right in the relationship with Him...so many times i had put myself in the service of God and believing that i am doing something that pleases Him...I'm so wrong and i need to make right with him immediately...how many times i had the negative thoughts toward someone in the leadership...how many time i had ever try to bring down someone by Church politic...how many times i had complained about certain issues and people when thing doesn't go on my way in church...and how many times had i...reminded of all the sins i had committed in the house of God, one day God just come to me and said softly on my ear: "I have a second chance for you..."
on the way of my 'faithful' service to God i lost the RELATIONSHIP with my master...producing good fruits and great harvest...sure...but what if i can save thousand upon thousand of people but ironically i lost my life before His throne at the end of my life...here i wanna make a re-commitment with God again...that i will treat ministry as a privilege rather than a duty, treat leader with a grateful heart rather than condemn them, treat people with understanding rather than harsh judgemental, live sacrificially for other instead pulling responsible to others, praying rather than complaining, JOY instead of BITTERNESS...
now i have strength, the joy that fall in love with Him again...good and bad just an paper away...attitude interpret the world u see...

ps. if i had offense anyone here...im very sry for it...i wrote this one shot without any changes of sentence except wrong spelling...