Wednesday, December 17, 2008

LOVEtoTHINK.com

recently just had my holidays and finally had my own little time to write and reflect my thoughts on something. i was looking for jobs lately. and in the mean while, surfing on Internet purposeless to find something interesting to read and study.

then i bump into one interesting subject between whether the World is creationism, or evolutionism? interesting subject uh huh...

well, as a believer of Christ and the Bible i have definitely not doubt about the teaching of the Words of God and everything He said is true. even from the beginning of the earth till now!

however, perhaps I'm not so good in explaining the wonder and amazing of God. certain things that the evolutionary argue can really shut my mouth up. (when i look at thing they debated i was like ' walau ehh, how i suppose to know?') hahaha..
i must admit that i have a lot things i do not fully understand in the world, the science the physic, the universe, are there aliens out there in the space and many many things in term of deep and intellectual subjects.
but 1 thing I'm sure about, it is the existence of God, my savior and creator. people would argue with me about their views and scientific beliefs on and on again. but as for my personal experiences and the process of my life development, i can not deny that there is a strong but yet gentle feeling in my heart that keep me believing that Jesus is real to me.
i was an atheist before i came to know Christ at the age of 15. I'm firm on my stand for i had experience a life-changing experience that it is beyond my knowledge to be able to explained in scientific language. ( if i know how sure i will do and write a thesis about it) but too bad i don't.
the world is full of mystery. today the scientist might discover a new theory tomorrow or maybe 100 years from now it will be thrown away. not everything on earth can be study and measure with observation knowledge. something ought to be study and measure with another scientific instrument, which i will called it Faith.

after all, human being are not as rational and logical as many people perceive us to be. many time i make my decision based on simple 3'E concept, Experience, Education and Emotional.
as far as I'm concern, there is not yet a scientific measurement invented and design to check our emotional level on judging things even to making major life decision.
just wanna leave a food of thoughts...i love to think...

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Isa 45 - I AM the LORD and there is no other god

Isa 45, '...I AM the LORD and there is no other god.'

Jesus is the Lord and there is no other god. he is the one who created the heaven and earth, who appointed leadership over our life, who is in control in both good times and bad times. Jesus is the Lord and there is no other god.

He has his special plan to every individual. and His thoughts and plans are too high for us to understand and deep for us to know. only God know His way and we mustn't make comparison between this person and that person. doesn't matter how corrupted this world could ever be, He is God whose still in charge of all these and trust that those who believe in the Lord will be save in all cost. world is getting more and more complicated but keep a simple faith , a child like faith! it's to totally rely on God rather than our own understanding of God. without this faith it's impossible to please God.

life is not smooth after all and not as easy as we taught there would be. but do not lose heart, for God is with you who keep His word in his heart and do not let the evil to take it away from them. i believe with all my heart, the generation that will turn this world upside down will be the generation that full with faith, hope and love (1 cor 13).

FAITH as in child like faith. faith in God that not what he can do for you but His character.far too often we treat God as our little wishing well. we ask things before counsel Him and i repented for my prayer life, which always surrounded on what i want from Him instead of quite down myself and let God tells me what He wants from me.

HOPE as in the salvation of Jesus Christ. hope is the one thing that we search in life to give
us security and assurance. many of us can publicly declare that Jesus is my hope but deep inside of us we place relationship, wealth, ministry, influence power, and even vision above God. despite of all our achievements, successful life, everyday we ought to come back to God with brokenness, take off all our fancy outfits and our 'glory', with 'sackcloth' on us and once again place our trust and hope and the altar of God.

Love as in love God passionately and love people compassionately. he who said ' i love God but i find it hard to love my neighbor' is consider a hypocrisy in the sight of God. for Jesus is 'love' and therefore as His children we are 'love' as well. doesn't matter how good and how correct the preacher or teacher can argue with His theologies, if he speaks it without love or
so that he can be justified, it's not love. spiritual cleverness is different form wisdom. know the bible very well does not mean wisdom, wisdom is from God and He is love. every words we said does counts, speak the language of love and control our tongue, which is the hardest part to control of all.


oh God i pray that You will continue to find me in the secret place. where i have draw strength from You. as i lived my days Lord, increase my capacity of faith, hope and love in You oh Lord. i know how much I've lack of these 3 and i pray that i will be part of that generation that You are raising up in this end time. oh Lord, i have no turning back, and i will not. i will run with You and with a fire that can't be tamed. Help me Oh Lord. and count me in Jesus, who is the LOrd and there is no other god. Amen.

Monday, October 6, 2008

You keep givin' me...

God is good. despite all our circumstances, He is still worth all our praises...
you just keep giving me...no matter what.

So many reasons to be thankful
So many blessings that I can't repay
And I never would've made it here without You
Sending angels to guide me on my way

You keep givin' me joy
You keep givin' me happiness
You keep givin' me hope
You keep givin' me everything
I wish You keep givin' holding me
When I'm about to fall
And if even all of that was not enough
You keep givin' me love

I know that I'm not always easy
And I know I put You through some trying days
But in spite of all the worries that I gave You
No, You never let my Angels get away

You keep givin' me joy
You keep givin' me happiness
You keep givin' me hope
You keep givin' me everything
I wish You keep givin' holding me
When I'm about to fall
And if even all of that was not enough
You keep givin' me love


You send angels to guide me from up above
You just keep gvin' me...
You just keep givin' me love

thanks for coming into my life...

Saturday, October 4, 2008

brokenness

We are living in an imperfect world. A lot things in life will not go according to what we had expected. People will say that,
"Life is unfair". Or even, doubted the existence of God in our life.
as a matter of fact, at some point in life all of us will gone through a period where your dreams have fallen apart, the departure of your loved one, the disappointments and so on. Those are the hurtful moment in life where people experience tremendous sadness and brokenness.
'why oh God, that this has happened to me? why me oh Lord?'
unfortunately, some lessons in life we need pay with a painful and heavy price. God allows a particular situation to take place so that He can change and mold us inside out.

God loves to touch and work through the broken-hearted.

He loves to heal, and restore us whose heart are broken and full of scares. because every time when a heart is broken, its pride die with it and this make rooms for God to work something out in this person's life.
my heart has once broken into pieces before. and the issue of that was the separation of my parent. that really hurt me a lot and i remembered i hold on to myself many unforgiveness, bitterness, depression and angers in my heart. those was one of the darkest moment in my life and this issue has cause me many difficulties while I'm growing up. Praise God that Jesus come into my life. and He heals my broken heart completely, though it's not a one time process but takes years upon years for me to let go the past hurts.
and from this heart that is broken by his family now God had turn its weakness into strength, from a place of weeping into to a place of well.
God allows brokenness, therefore we will put our trust in him, become 'selfless' and 'nothing' in Christ Jesus. and through this He can builds us up again and this time round to another new level of faith. But God will move us, from a place of weeping to a place of well, a place of promise, a place of hope.

God is always there with us. He knows how much we have struggles, even the weight of our tears He keeps for us. it's not easy, but God will walk with us throughout this time. He will never leave us, nor forsake us.

"Lord my heart cry for You, my heart yearn for You,
i beg You to come into my rescue, be my escape and strong tower,
in whom i had found my strength, in whom i had found my peace,
again, again and again. and You will never fails
you have proven yourself that you are faithful God, and i pray you prove it again this time o Lord,
for I'm in great burden and in desperately need of You.
help me Jesus, be my hope, be my strength, be my love, be my life Lord.
i will wait upon You, and rest in Your mighty arms of love,
all that you have promised, it will come to past one day, and you will fulfill it.
love you Jesus"

Monday, September 8, 2008

Isaiah 25

isa 25 - 7.9.08


"in that day the people will proclaim, 'this is our God. we trusted in Him, and He saved us.
This is the LORD, in whom we trusted. let us rejoice in the salvation He brings!"
prophet Isaiah exalted and praised God because God will complete what He had promised to His people long ago. God gave Isaiah the vision of the final judgement as well as restoration of the Glory of God in the end times when God ruled the earth.

Isaiah praised God and lifted up His name, though all these events are not yet been taken place, which is something that is still 'unseen'. and this is the one thing that makes Isaiah so different among the prophets in his times. Isaiah is able to see the 'vision, and the whole picture of God rather than seeing things with his own eye or from the perspectives of the world. this is very important as a prophet of God in his time. only you alone know what you speak on behalf is from God or not. perhaps many things in life that God has promised to us are yet to be fulfill. but while waiting on His timing, somehow we lose our heart in this journey or even to the extreme, we 'forget' about all these promises. bible always remind us that God's promises need to be claim by His believers. we need no fear in what He has promised - those blessing as well as the cursing, for what He said He will fulfill. but we ought to have faith and believe in what He has started off in us and trust that He is the finisher of all things.

this is our God! He is the beginning and the end, alpha and omega. He is faithful and just. all
that He said or promised to you through bible or Rhema will be fulfill. He remembers
every prayers and tears that His children broke down for Him, even those promises that we'd
forgotten but He remembers it till the end of the day. therefore, have faith in Him, His characters and
His love, trust Him in times of disappointment, let's believe in God for His unchanging love
towards all of us and He will never short change even one of us. in times that we couldn't see what God is doing, let be stilled in His presence and know that He is God.

and surely on that day when God comes through, we will declare and shout out loud that,"indeed this is our God. we trusted in Him...we will rejoice in the salvation He brings!"
God place every difficult situations in life for one purpose; it's to mold us and refine us to be His
pure gold and fine silver. a trial that set you to excel, not intend to fail you, not based on your grades or performances to impress Him, but instead, it's all about your capacity of FAITH in Him. let's rise up and be a generation
of excellent in FAITH and TRUST...

GOD BLESS =)

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Spirit of Discernment

spirit of discernment

these words appeared to me last night as i spend my personal time in worship and prayer. i must admitted that my spiritual walk had reached to a huge wall that i'm struggling to climb it through. my worship wasn't that excited anymore, my prayers wasn't that passionate anymore. and i started to doubt that whether i'm still have a genuine relationship with Jesus anymore just like how i used to be. my relationship with God has challenged and i need a breakthrough of that.
and last night i decided to spend some time with God, thrown away the worry of the time and the agenda and so on. i just wanna spend some time with God and draw near to Him again.
as i begun to worship and pray, i know deep inside my heart that God has NEVER leave me nor forsake me. He is still there when my heart is broken and crying out to Him. the peace of God filled my heart as i begun to hear His whisper to me, "I have seen you, i have heard you, you are always in my coverage."
the affirmation of God is so strong to me. in times that i'm not aware He's there, in times that i didn't feel His presence He's there as well. He loves me so much that never there is one second He is looking elsewhere beside me.
but then why i still can not 'see', 'hear' or 'touch' Him even when Jesus is dying to draw near to me?part of the reason i found out is that we, Jesus and me or us, are not looking on the same direction with one another. love relationship is a two sided relationship and required both parties to take part on that. love on one side is not complete and perfect love, it will struggle to find its balance and collapse one day.
i believe same principle apply to our relationship with Jesus. God rebuked me that i was side-tracked and loss my focus on Him. all the experience i had over these few years has take me to a whole new level of my faith in God. just like the circle of the four season, spirit life has its own season to come.
as i prayed and ask God what should i do to climb over the spiritual 'huge wall' in front of me, the word 'spirit of discernment' come into my head. these are not strange words to me, in fact this was one of the spiritual gift that Janice ask me to pray about when i was still in high school.
to be honest, i have limited understanding and knowledge towards this gift and i still searching for more deep insight of the gift. i believe this is my word of the season. i'm excited to see the brand new season of my life. whose knows maybe it's not, but anything take will take me a step closer to God is worth my trying.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Restoration

something pomp into my heart when i saw this word 'restore' last night during prayer meeting. i asked God,
'what does it means to be restored?'
this is no an unfamiliar word to Christianity. many times in Bible God said that He intended good for those who love Him and will bring restoration to His people and land (2 Chron 7:14). there are more than one occasion that God wanted to bring restoration to His people. one of the most significant act of God restoration is through sending His son Jesus Christ to die for all our sins. this is the restoration between God and His people, so that things will turn back to its original intention when God created us.

it reminds me of the story when Joshua leading the Israelites to enter the Promise Land of God. The Israelites have been wondering in the wilderness over 40 years. Bible said that they have no rest over these period of times until the time where they finally enter the promise land. This is a type of Christ talking about God's rest. in new testament it's said that Jesus is our peace and now we all can find our rest in Christ Jesus.
things weren't right at first, but God come and turn things back to His original intention.

'rest' and 'store' are the key to 'restore' our lives. we find our rest in Jesus, and store up not for our own good but Jesus. proverb said where's our treasure is then there our heart will be. Restoration can seem so easy but yet challenge. many of us are not willing to give up our old life and set God our priority. i wonder what make the rich young ruler to ask Jesus how to inherit eternal life.
"sell all your goods and give it to the poor, then take up my cross and follow me"
that wahh...
restoration can seem as the grace of God but required our trust in Him. we are retricted by our physical realm and too often fail to see what is going on in the spiritual reaml, that even though i have nothing in physical that i can cover myself but through God He make all things good according to His own way.
restoration is when God moves His hand among His people and started to turn the world around by His goodness and mercy.
'Rest' + 'Store' = 'Restore'

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Worship, Faith and God's Hand...

recently youtube has been a real blessing to me. i found so many sources all around the world and just been amazed to see what God has doing right now for His purpose. nothing is coincident, there is a plan for all these things. be blessed (please watch with a heart of worship)



What is Worship?
worship is when we stop looking at the thing of the world and start looking up to heaven...
it's when we turn away from our problem and magnify God's greatness in our life...
it's when all things seem impossible but God is still possible...
it's when the time you find it hard to believe but yet you choose to keep on and keeping holding on in His Grace...
it's when we take ourselves out of the picture and let God finished what He has begun.
it's worship is when we realized Jesus is all we got...
that is a heart of worship

Pastor. Mike, one of my real life hero of faith, now joining the team with Joel and Darlene continue to impact the world with a PURE heart for WORSHIP. I'm so blessed when i listen and listen again to this song...

i never see a worshiper that is like Mike...
i never seen a crowd that worship in this manner before...

Friday, July 4, 2008

God of this city - Passion 08

"I looked for a MAN among them
who would BUILD a wall...

and STAND before Me in the gap...
on behalf of the LAND..."
Eze. 22:30

how eager are you to see God's mighty works in this land?
how willing are you to let God used you to be His instrument on earth?
how passionate are you to see God's glory dwell in this land?

God is looking down today and looking only for ONE man..
ONE man to STAND for his land...


Monday, June 30, 2008

Youth Prayer Gathering


to be honest i'm even more excited for this event than any concerts or Hillsong tour...i means, where or when u can gather young people, all over the Malaysia to come and seek the face of God for our nation.
never underestimate the power of prayer...especially youth! calvin and me will be goin down to Johor for this and if anyone of u wanna to join us please let us knw ya...we would like to have u wif us...
every revival come after a great fest of prayer movement, it even begin with a man or few people who are just crying for God to save their nation...and maybe God is looking down today on Malaysia and wonder who can He used to usher in the presence of God on this land...i prayed that the prayer of Isaiah will be the prayer of our generation, that God, here i am send me...
God is looking for that 1 person to change the world...

Monday, May 19, 2008

david cook!!!

he's simply amazing...he's just making this world a better place with good music...

don't wanna miss a thing-


always be my baby-

God loves China...

i cant help myself but grieve whenever i watch the news...many of our friends from china lose everything we have in just a moment...their house, their friends, and even their loved one (more than 900 student still struck beneath the collapse building). their world has collapse, along with the buildings.



oh Lord:
'i commit thousand upon thousand brothers and sisters at China into Your merciful hand o God, i know You love them and You love them more than anyone could in this world. look at their broken heart and broken home and their lives that has been destroy, Lord i pray that You mercy and love will pour unto their lives Lord, that You are the ultimate Hope and You will never fails one of them...they need You o Lord and only You can put their broken pieces back into one. mountain can be moved, building can falls, lives can be in mess, but Hope in Jesus will not be destroy and no one can steal it away. i pray that through this event many doors will be open in China and let Your love, and salvation fall upon China, let the Loved of God take away China by storm. use us oh Lord, and do as only You can, Holy Spirit. Amen.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

one life one purpose

ecclesiastes 1 - 7.5.08

what is the meaning of life?
life without God is utterly meaningless. no matter how much you've done or accomplished it will still become meaningless. people try all their best, to chase after things that they though can bring satisfication their desire, ambition, and life.
but those life without God will never satisfied, will never content, they will never find it.

i speak this with a broken and compassionate heart to this generation. for many of them, as young as they are, having no meaning in life, thought they can appear to have a bright future and a purpose in life, deep inside they have nothing.
only those who lay down his life on the foot of the cross will found life.


Lord i pray for this generation, give us a destiny,
a purpose to live on this world.
im asking the destiny where we can find rest and satisfy,
not the destiny that this world can offer to us,
we need a destiny from above, from YOU ALONE

we fade as a generation, not on ourselves. people in future will only remember the generation, not specifically a person.
generation come and go, but what i wanna left behind for the next generation is
that, we all have a purpose to live. and this is a purpose to live for Christ
alone.

everything will fade away, but God's kingdom will stand forever. so friend i
urged you, to align your purpose of life in God today. we need to cross over and impact ther world, but what the point if you cross over without taking up your cross with you?

Sunday, April 13, 2008

shout to the Lord, all the earth let us Sing...(america idol)

it's so amazing...never tot tat this could happened...oh Lord increase my faith to believe what you have installed for us in this time...imagine how many people watching this all aorund the world, they said the total vote for 'america idol' is even greater than america's president election...i still can't believe tat impact of this...Praise The Lord...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chXEraRnE4o

Saturday, April 12, 2008

3 'ship' God gives us...

1. relationSHIP
good frens in life, my dear mom, best buddies and most importantly, a relationship with You...

2. stewardSHIP
thx very much for what i own in life now, my allowance, my phone(keke), laptop, camera and money...i know that there are all Yours and my job is to 'jaga' it for You.
3. leaderSHIP

ppl tat keep me goin on and on. pick me up when im down and build me up to become who am i today. Janice thx very much for da word of encouragement tat day...i would like share some part of it here and hope u all blessed...
josh 1:6-9

"there was such high expectation upon Joshua, to be as 'good' as Moses, but God used him to be a leader according to his unique ability and personality...walk with people who are amazing leaders, but in your learning from them never let their qualities be your standard more than let God's qualities be your standard"
janice (april, 9, 08)

indeed im very blessed by these word. at the end, God is still my audience, not people. He is my leader of life and i wanna serve Him with my unique ability and personality.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

refining fire...


it takes intense heat to purify gold and silver. similarly. it often take the heat of the trials for us, as a Christian to be purified. God shows us what is in us and clears out anything that gets in the way of complete trust in Him. on 1 peter 1:7, peter said that "these trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong and pure. it's being tested and as fire test and purifies gold - and your faith is far more important and precious to God than mere gold"

therefore, when tough times come you way, knowing that God want to use them to refine your faith and purify my heart.

proverbs 17:3 - Fire tests the purity of silver and gold, but the Lord tests the heart.

seek opportunities in every trials that you faced. you would either raise up and take up the challenge or just let yourself to be overcame by the circumstances.

Friday, March 21, 2008

a simple prayer to my future wife...

i think we all should start praying for our 'unknown' future partner. i don't know about you but im excited to see her grow in her spiritual walk with God, even thought i don't know who she is rigth now. but i'm just desperate about her, so this is what i wanna remember her in my prayer everyday...

Oh Lord,

please guild her on every steps that she takes in her daily life. and i pray that she will be strong and courage to overcome her circumstances, not by her own but by Your strength. also i pray that she will continue oh Lord, to walk with you each day and to increase her capacity to love You more passionately and love people more compassionately. this is my desire oh Lord, to see her love for You grown daily and even to a point that will cost her everything. Help her in her daily walk oh Lord, increase her in her knowledge about Your Word. prepare her oh Lord, to become what you want her to be tomorrow. i pray Lord that You will be her provider and protector. thought i don't know who is she and where she is right now, my prayer is that You will always lead her on Your path of righteousness, never leave her nor forsake her. this is my prayer to my future wife. may You oh Lord, be the center of our relationship, always and forever.

i love you...

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

solomon...

over the past few weeks i had reminded the story of this man, solomon. as many as people would remember about this man, he is the wisest man ever lived on earth according to the Word of God and also the riches and prosperity he shared is beyond numbered.
solomon, above all else he ask God wisdom to govern His people. in response to that, God was pleased and glad for what solomon ask. and at the end, God not only granted his request and also bless him with what he did not ask for- riches, honor and long life. 1 king 3:5-15
we all know God is a God that loves to bless us. in fact this is one of his nature- He gives his Only son, Jesus. but what i discover in this passage is...God can be glad or disappointed in things that u ask from him.

for example u ask for a b'day present from uR parent, at first u were just asking a new mobile phone but u have no idea that ur parent are actually prepared to buy u a brand new car. or uR parent ask what u wanna have for dinner not knowing that they are already prepared to bring u to dine in TGIF but u told them wanna go eat mamak food.

do u get da pic?y settle for second best while u can have the pleasure to enjoy the best God has install for u?
imagine that if solomon was only ask for riches or long life when God appear to him, what would possibly happened?
haha seriously i don't know too. but 1 thing i knw is that he would probably failed to realize his full potential.

mark this word, when u ask God for the right thing, the bible said He's not only granted uR original request but bless u with some other things that u did not ask.

i pray and i pray that i wouldn't limit God and my potential by the prayers that i pray. riches and long life is what to God? to me solomon has make a good deal, he ask for wisdom and God gives him riches and long life as a free gift. so friend, be WISE in what u ask...

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

uniqueness

one day i asked my mom this question, why u still wanna dress up uRself if we are only goin to meet up our old relatives? then she answer me back, "i'm not dress up for other people, i dress up only myself"...straight away, i was stun there...
people oweyz told me this when i first started my christian journey, "u r unique in God's eye, He made you different and special from others."
i wonder how long i never heard that kind of encouragement since then...
one thing i oweyz keep reminding myself is that i'm made for a purpose and special in His eye... as well as the world could see that "i'm different and special" from many of them...however, i've changed even when i myself didn't realizing it...the way i dress up, way i talk and so on...hav been so "un-alvin"...i must admit that ppl is one of the factor...sometime i'm too caught out wif how other people would think of me what if i fail them...
i've been 'dress up' becoz of others, not for myself...i wonder why that people especially in a big city r so caught out wif identity and 'GANG"...?can i juz be myself of the way i style my hair, wat kind of food to eat or should i juz share exactly the same thoughts we all share...?sometime i felt like im living in a robot world, where everyone look da SAME or trying to be da SAME...

Sunday, February 24, 2008

driver seat...

i received something very interesting last night when we( cal n me) were praying for our goals for this year...hope you'll be blessed...

i was driving a car to a place where i never been before. i have no clue about where is it and how i gonna reach there, and all i can refer to was the 'sign-board' along the road and a guy who i dun know sitting beside me. i was confused at times and turn into lots and lots of wrong junctions as i was still trying to find a WAY out to get to the place. moreover, u know it very well about the condition of our Malaysia's 'sign-board'...it leads u to no way!!!( not all the times la but absolutely sometimes)

so here i am in lost. although there are few times the guy who sitting next to me had giving me some SUGGESTION about the direction. and in fact i felt that I'm getting more and more closer to my destination after with his feedback. but still, i couldn't find it. then he said:
"let me take the driver seat."
"no, i don't know you", i replied.
and i tried another few mores round but still couldn't get the WAY.then he said again:
"let me take the driver seat"
"no, i think i can handle this, besides that i don't know you"
then he replied,
"you can don't know about my WAY but you can't don't know me. and now let me take you home."
and all in a sudden i know who this guy is. He is The Way.
for so long i have been taken the driver seat and allow God sit next to me. at first i thought it was OK for God still with me anyway. but 1 thing i lack of is that the intention of God. through this i know that God hasn't really happy for just sitting on the passenger's seat, He wants to TAKES us and LEADS us.

friends where do you see yourself in right now? who is sitting at the driver seat? i don't know about you, but my journey is still haven't end, and this time round God is my driver. assuredly i don't know where i am heading to, but with Him, why should i so eager to know.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

see the world through Your eye...

this month i hav recieved 2 part time job offers at KL...one is working as a promoter of a famous brand at Malaysia and another one as a service crew of a...also quite a well known japanese restourant at Malaysia la...believe me, now i can said to u with all my heart that "money is not easy to earn"...i dun knw bout u if u were in my situation, bt i took both of the jobs...same time...(haiyo too desperate edi tat time)
i nearly gt myself burn out over this period...im stress out and frustrated about my life and things that r happen in my work place such as a boss that very high demand on uR work time and disagreement and so on...after a while i started regrading of my choice simply because i can't c my future there felt like a waste of time...and i complained it to God n hope that will gt any encouragement there n wat He reply really blow my mind...He said that "this is what u wan, not wat i wan. i already have something installed for u bt since u dun wan to take it then u will settle the second best"...all in a sudden i become silent and u knw...juz stun turn there n dun knw wat should i said next...God is teaching me a lesson over this time...not all the doors that open to me are from Him...no matter how good it seems to be...some r from the world n some even perhaps r after by uR own desire...settle for the Best or the second best of uR life? u choice uRself...for wat i knw is, God's way always is the better way and i really learned it by this time round...God Bless!!!

jer 29:11, "For I know the plan I had for u,..."
pro 3:5-6, "Trust in the LORD...and He shall makes your path straight"